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So this weekend I blocked Rey. Finally. I should have done it to begin with. I read somewhere if you can still be friends with an ex; either the love was never there or it still is. I do still love Rey. I'm much more missed him than I ever did Mathew. Maybe with Mathew there were a lot more hurt memories and pain that lasted so long with just constant fights, lose of myself and the anger of being controlled. Rey and I were following back into old patterns which now i understand all the girls I made fun of before for doing the same thing. With Matt I didn't want to nor did it feel the same. With Rey just the love and happy moments came back and I just wanted to be with him but knew he hadn't grown up.
So this weekend was weird. First it started with me dropping off clover dog and there was some girl leaving the direction of his house when i pulled down the street. And his lack of wearing his cross when i saw him which he only ever ever takes off for sex. I thought it's not my business we aren't together. But then he grabbed me into a tight embrace and went to kiss me. I pulled back and said no. He thought i did that because i was sick but i was like oh no, how do you kick some girl out at 7am on a Saturday and then try to kiss me. Anyway there was the whole drama with him taking clover back to my house afterwards and dropping bags off into my house. He didn't really answer and said there wasn't room in the van for the bags and then said he had them because he wasn't sure if he needed to change for the event (going to a boy scout thing for his nephew). But then he'd want the bags with him. I don't know it was weird. I think he was planning on staying until I seemed mad about it.
Well I called Brooke because she is just blunt. She lied to me about sleeping with my brother but it was more an omission and she came clean when i asked. She just can't hold a lie long. She said she knew Rey had someone but had promised she wasn't going to call me to tell me but if I called she said she wasn't going to lie to me either. So she told me that Rey was suppose to go to Mason City this last weekend with the girl to see Brooke and Kyle. But he backed out like Saturday morning. But he had been promising all week to watch clover dog. So he was lying to everyone. I just couldn't deal with the lying, the open comfort of being in my house when i'm not there, and that he was dating a girl but on the Downlow because I was that girl at one time and know what it feels like when he's dragging you along. I blocked him on facebook and phone. It's for my own good. I can't grow or move on if he's still in my life.
So this weekend was weird. First it started with me dropping off clover dog and there was some girl leaving the direction of his house when i pulled down the street. And his lack of wearing his cross when i saw him which he only ever ever takes off for sex. I thought it's not my business we aren't together. But then he grabbed me into a tight embrace and went to kiss me. I pulled back and said no. He thought i did that because i was sick but i was like oh no, how do you kick some girl out at 7am on a Saturday and then try to kiss me. Anyway there was the whole drama with him taking clover back to my house afterwards and dropping bags off into my house. He didn't really answer and said there wasn't room in the van for the bags and then said he had them because he wasn't sure if he needed to change for the event (going to a boy scout thing for his nephew). But then he'd want the bags with him. I don't know it was weird. I think he was planning on staying until I seemed mad about it.
Well I called Brooke because she is just blunt. She lied to me about sleeping with my brother but it was more an omission and she came clean when i asked. She just can't hold a lie long. She said she knew Rey had someone but had promised she wasn't going to call me to tell me but if I called she said she wasn't going to lie to me either. So she told me that Rey was suppose to go to Mason City this last weekend with the girl to see Brooke and Kyle. But he backed out like Saturday morning. But he had been promising all week to watch clover dog. So he was lying to everyone. I just couldn't deal with the lying, the open comfort of being in my house when i'm not there, and that he was dating a girl but on the Downlow because I was that girl at one time and know what it feels like when he's dragging you along. I blocked him on facebook and phone. It's for my own good. I can't grow or move on if he's still in my life.