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You know, for awhile there I thought life was getting better... I guess thats what I get for thinking. I was suppose to start a new job at Frankie's (a bar) this past week, but they seemed to have dicked me. So now I'm pretty screwed with the salon being my only job, I'm barely making my phone and car insurance payments... and I still owe on my car. I just bought Justin a ring for Christmas, the only way I afforded that is because I got a credit card from Kay Jewelers. I really wanted to get my douche bag sister something for Christmas too, because my parent's can't even afford a Christmas tree right now, let alone anything for her. She told my mom "Its okay I know I probably wont be getting anything for Christmas this year"... she's 10, and she shouldn't even have to worry about that. Were still getting evicted, just not as soon as we thought. My mom and I went to the Comcast job fair last Tuesday together, sat there for almost 4 hours for a 5 minute interview. They're were only 10 openings for the position we applied for, and there were hundreds of people there. I guess I'll just have to keep applying.
Tomorrow, as long as I can get myself out of bed, I will go on another job hunt. Hopefully that's successful, because I don't know how much longer I can take this. I've been losing a lot of hair lately, it's so thin, and I used to have really thick hair... The only thing I can think of is it's stress related. There are a few bars on the way home from work, I think I might stop into tonight depending on my mood.
My niece Carly spent the night last night, and I wish she didn't have to go home because she just brightens everyone's mood. She's getting so big, she's 3 and a half months now and she's a genius. She's starting to roll over, and eat cereal, and now she's teething. I really do love her like she's my own. I can't help it. When I go to visit her, and it's time to leave it's like I'm leaving the world behind me. It really does break my heart, I think it's a subconscious fear that it may be the last time I see her... I'm just so paranoid because my niece Kayla died when she was a month old, and I just can't help but be afraid.
Well I'd like to have some good news to share, but nothings really changed too much. Sorry.
Tomorrow, as long as I can get myself out of bed, I will go on another job hunt. Hopefully that's successful, because I don't know how much longer I can take this. I've been losing a lot of hair lately, it's so thin, and I used to have really thick hair... The only thing I can think of is it's stress related. There are a few bars on the way home from work, I think I might stop into tonight depending on my mood.
My niece Carly spent the night last night, and I wish she didn't have to go home because she just brightens everyone's mood. She's getting so big, she's 3 and a half months now and she's a genius. She's starting to roll over, and eat cereal, and now she's teething. I really do love her like she's my own. I can't help it. When I go to visit her, and it's time to leave it's like I'm leaving the world behind me. It really does break my heart, I think it's a subconscious fear that it may be the last time I see her... I'm just so paranoid because my niece Kayla died when she was a month old, and I just can't help but be afraid.
Well I'd like to have some good news to share, but nothings really changed too much. Sorry.