Long week...
It has been such a long week. I feel like I've done nothing but read and read and more reading, and I'm still not as confident as I'd like to be. I have my psychology final tomorrow morning and I'm just so worried and getting to be obsessed over it, if ya cant tell already??? I've written a 5 page paper just in case I dont do well on my final. I guess it just seems so much more important then everything, because it's my major now. and I wanna know that I am knowledgable in the field and am going to be a good asect in the career. I've seen too mnay therapist which did nothing but waste my time and take my parent's money. I know I havent been in the best of moods these last few days, all those things keep running through my head. "Michelle this proves whether you're anything or not??" I know thats crap, but I cant help it. I feel as if the world is kind of against me right now, I pushed people aside because I needed to get things done by myself but now I regret it. I'm hiding so much from the peole I care most about, but at the same time with few exceptions (from people who I least expected)I feel like people are reaching out to me. Part of it is my fault, and I read this quote about True friends are the ones who walk in when the rest walk out"..Why are so many people walking out?? Mom says if I was upfront and honest about the things going on in my life, maybe I would have that problem. But who wants to hear my stupid shit... I have to go to sculpture and pick up my stuff. Its pretty pathetic when you sit here crying in the library and writing to a live journal....Yeah....