Feb 27, 2005 03:27
HE called ME
he missed "his sarah"
he did most of the talking and i noticed how weak my voice sounded
i was hard on him but he said i was right in everything i said the other day about how he fucked everything
but "at least i can admit to that"
he described another one of his remarkable dreams and i saw so much symbolism right away but i held my tongue. i learned the most about his life recently from this.
he said he would call again tomorrow
i feel physically ill
and i cant stop coughing up what his voice sounded like in my head