if we talk, just curious, would this end up like it always does?

[hope_meets_less]

lets have another go
where we go nowhere
where i lose no one
because he wasnt there

i cant get this salt off my lips
where you crashed into me like the violent surf
if you could respond just once
what do you think you would say?
and would it be what you wanted yourself to sound like?

if i could make my peace
and drive home without a temporary smile
i'd make a salute to false comfort
and be on my way

now i listen to songs with no words
because they never really know
and just because you kiss me now
doesnt mean im the only one

and maybe if i really knew
what went on while i was gone
i could pretend that you always come back to me
without just hoping for the best

what if i never came back
would you really be left without?
do you honestly wait
for the oppertunity to feel me there

if lies were never spoken
i'd award you best actor
because in our silent movie
no one ever knows whats going on

"We left behind the busy crowd.
So it seems we slow down.
Meet me with a way out through the lies.
Nowhere, going nowhere in the fake yellow light.
The feelings change so fast.
Safety scares them away.
I can't bring myself to say it's my own advice I need.
Nowhere and then nowhere.
Living trapped inside the chase.
Our weakness is the same.
We need poison sometimes.
So take another drink with me.
Blame no one.
Look in my eyes and blame no one."

dont give me any advice
i know, oh, i know

i had a dream where my knuckles would cave in when i tried to punch the wall
.they.wouldnt.let.me.hurt.myself.

I want to live my life so that my nights are not full of regrets.
D. H. Lawrence
(courtesy of caroline)

i.couldnt.get.any.lower.than.missing.him.
ive.just.hit.rock.bottom.