but i wont make you

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i blew up last night and told him just how much of an asshole he was being
and he blew me off
so i threw some shit and yelled and listened to some hardcore
i fell asleep listening to SOCO huddled next to the wall

i walked through my day today mostly alone keeping to myself and my discman
i read the paper and ate a grilled cheese by myself in the dining hall
i learned about asian theatre and it make me very interested to do some independent study
numerous parts of the day i admited to myself "no more. no more of anything."

i walked home and i was chilly with my little argyle sweater on
i was listening to H.I.M. and the sky was beautiful
i came in and drank some water and took off my socks and shoes

he called me
no, listen
HE called ME

for the next hour i listened to him nonstop talk about himself and why he is the way he is
i couldnt take the smile off my face
he went from his favorite color to his insecurites
he got frustrated at not being able to explain himself

i got the biggest insight ive ever had into his head and why he is the way he is

he then talked about this girl he really liked but she blew him off
i took my breath in fast and clenched my teeth but i stayed quiet and listened

he really appreciated me listening and said that he knew he could tell me all this and no one else

i said i had decided to leave him alone after last night but he said "no, dont do that. dont do that."