Like any of you are actually going to read this.. ha
So, Im grounded, but only until Friday. Over the weekend, I did nothing but sleep. Im exhausted. I think I may have overslept.
Yesterday I didnt go to school because I had a doctors appoitment, causing me to miss two classes... and I really didnt feel like going to Cell Biology and Genetics. Instead, I went to see Jarhead with Tyler... Idk the movie was nothing like I expected it to be..
I went to the mall with my mom and brother and bought a winter coat and Etnies. Oohh and a hat... Then we went out to dinner at Tres Margeritas.. when I came home, I checked the caller ID and saw that Nick called... I thought I was going to pass out my heart was beating so fast. So I called him back but no one answered. I was freaking out and needed out, so I went to Hobbys to talk to him for a bit. We had a few cigarettes and while him and his girlfriend were breaking up, Nick called.
We talked for what seemed like hours. My god have I missed talking to him. I mean honestly, hes the only person that I can tell ANYTHING to. Anything at all and Im not afraid. We had a couple laughs and then a few regrets but all in all, the conversation went well. He told me how happy he was for me and we made all of these college plans together. I told him I missed him, he told me we'd be seeing a lot of eachother when he gets out. He even wants to take up modeling with me because its easy money(Ill tell you about modeling later). It was quite fun hearing his voice again, its a lot deeper than a remember but it still brings a smile to my face. He told me that we will always be best friends even if we are both in serious relationships now, and that it would never change between us. Well he had to go cause his phone kept breaking up, and he said he would call me as soon as he gets another pass and that I should be excepting something from him in the mail... and then he told me I was beautiful. Wow... that was wonderful and made my day. I felt so sure of myself at that moment.. it was weird. and different.
Hobby and I left and Tyler and I started fighting for a few hours. It was horrible. I just wanted it to be done with. I had no idea what I wanted.. Nick called and I was so confused. I know that we can never be together but I miss him so much, I miss being in love, I miss his smile, I just miss hanging out with him and talking for hours and hours on my bed. Nothing will ever be the same, but he has changed. I can tell. I started crying and Tyler and I talked.. I didnt want to tell him anything but my god he kept prying so I did. I told him everything about Nick, how I felt and what not. Tyler was so comforting and reassuring that I realized even though I miss what Nick and I had, Tyler is now there for me and he really cares about it... and thats when I realized how much I care about him too.. and I am so thankful to be with him. He worked things out and its so comforting being comfortable with Nick and my relationship. We are both happy. We are both in relationships. Yet we both still want our friendship to stay the same.. idk.. its weird But im so happy.
Yesterday I didnt go to school because I had a doctors appoitment, causing me to miss two classes... and I really didnt feel like going to Cell Biology and Genetics. Instead, I went to see Jarhead with Tyler... Idk the movie was nothing like I expected it to be..
I went to the mall with my mom and brother and bought a winter coat and Etnies. Oohh and a hat... Then we went out to dinner at Tres Margeritas.. when I came home, I checked the caller ID and saw that Nick called... I thought I was going to pass out my heart was beating so fast. So I called him back but no one answered. I was freaking out and needed out, so I went to Hobbys to talk to him for a bit. We had a few cigarettes and while him and his girlfriend were breaking up, Nick called.
We talked for what seemed like hours. My god have I missed talking to him. I mean honestly, hes the only person that I can tell ANYTHING to. Anything at all and Im not afraid. We had a couple laughs and then a few regrets but all in all, the conversation went well. He told me how happy he was for me and we made all of these college plans together. I told him I missed him, he told me we'd be seeing a lot of eachother when he gets out. He even wants to take up modeling with me because its easy money(Ill tell you about modeling later). It was quite fun hearing his voice again, its a lot deeper than a remember but it still brings a smile to my face. He told me that we will always be best friends even if we are both in serious relationships now, and that it would never change between us. Well he had to go cause his phone kept breaking up, and he said he would call me as soon as he gets another pass and that I should be excepting something from him in the mail... and then he told me I was beautiful. Wow... that was wonderful and made my day. I felt so sure of myself at that moment.. it was weird. and different.
Hobby and I left and Tyler and I started fighting for a few hours. It was horrible. I just wanted it to be done with. I had no idea what I wanted.. Nick called and I was so confused. I know that we can never be together but I miss him so much, I miss being in love, I miss his smile, I just miss hanging out with him and talking for hours and hours on my bed. Nothing will ever be the same, but he has changed. I can tell. I started crying and Tyler and I talked.. I didnt want to tell him anything but my god he kept prying so I did. I told him everything about Nick, how I felt and what not. Tyler was so comforting and reassuring that I realized even though I miss what Nick and I had, Tyler is now there for me and he really cares about it... and thats when I realized how much I care about him too.. and I am so thankful to be with him. He worked things out and its so comforting being comfortable with Nick and my relationship. We are both happy. We are both in relationships. Yet we both still want our friendship to stay the same.. idk.. its weird But im so happy.