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Okay so a couple things:
1. Fitchburg:
I love being back here. Its definately so good to be back with the girls. They make me happy. I couldnt ask for better friends. The apartment, well, could be a little nicer but I still love it. The freedom is amazing. Its go to have a place to go back to that you can call your own after a shitty day of classes. Its also good to be able to party whenever you want and be able to bring our friends back here.
2. Classes:
They suck. But really, what did I expect. I've already started skipping and thats just bad news. I should stop that.
3. Love:
Its official. I'm in love. Thats the one draw back to being here. I dont get Alycia everyday like i did this summer so I miss her so much. Its a crazy kinda love. Shes become one of my best friends, someone I know I can trust and tell anything too. I think thats important and it makes me so happy. I havent had someone make me smile the way she does in a long time. Or someone who gets me so much. Although being away from her is killing me, when we are together, it makes the time apart worth it. I think we're perfect for eachother on so many levels.
Last night was devastating. Fighting with her makes me feel like I have nothing. It makes me feel so empty. I cant stand it. And the thought of losing her makes me feel sick to my stomach and hollow in my chest, like my heart was torn out. Ive never felt it so intensely. Right now shes all I want. I couldnt ask for anyone else. There isnt anyone better for me right now.
Since I'm back here I decided to get this thing going again.
We'll see how long that lasts.
1. Fitchburg:
I love being back here. Its definately so good to be back with the girls. They make me happy. I couldnt ask for better friends. The apartment, well, could be a little nicer but I still love it. The freedom is amazing. Its go to have a place to go back to that you can call your own after a shitty day of classes. Its also good to be able to party whenever you want and be able to bring our friends back here.
2. Classes:
They suck. But really, what did I expect. I've already started skipping and thats just bad news. I should stop that.
3. Love:
Its official. I'm in love. Thats the one draw back to being here. I dont get Alycia everyday like i did this summer so I miss her so much. Its a crazy kinda love. Shes become one of my best friends, someone I know I can trust and tell anything too. I think thats important and it makes me so happy. I havent had someone make me smile the way she does in a long time. Or someone who gets me so much. Although being away from her is killing me, when we are together, it makes the time apart worth it. I think we're perfect for eachother on so many levels.
Last night was devastating. Fighting with her makes me feel like I have nothing. It makes me feel so empty. I cant stand it. And the thought of losing her makes me feel sick to my stomach and hollow in my chest, like my heart was torn out. Ive never felt it so intensely. Right now shes all I want. I couldnt ask for anyone else. There isnt anyone better for me right now.
Since I'm back here I decided to get this thing going again.
We'll see how long that lasts.