Family
everyone has family right, well almost everyone anyway. and still half the time do any of u feel like u have noone in this world? well i do, and not jst half the time, say 90% of the time. i mean what is family exactly? i wouldnt know, i never experienced it. my parents were always busy with work when i was a child, never had any time for me. and now? well now even if they had the time they would much rather spend it on my brother than on me. ever since my bro was born, 12 years ago, i was 6 then, i have tried to be a boy. cuz thats wat my parents always wanted, a son, not a daughter, they see me as a mistake. i mean how weird is dat, their first child and they hate her, y the f*** didnt they jst abort me or sumthn? at least i wudnt be going through this hell now. i mean, do daughters mean nothing? i tried so much to be a boy, and now all the boys treat me as one, and i dont want to be, i dont want to know wat goes through their mind, i want to b a girl, i want to be me. but that's not really possible anymore is it? i hate my parents more than anyone else in this world. and some people happen to think that i m being a bitch by sayn dat, well maib then i m. what i got to say is, if i hate them now, its because of them, its because of what they made me. i mean, this guy showed me this thing today it sed, u were so ugly, ur mum had to be drunk to have breastfed u. and i tout thats true, she prolly was drunk, not cuz of d ugly bit, but because she never wanted me in the first place. so what did she do? 3 months old i was she left me with ma granparents, n didnt visit till i was abt 2, and my world revolved arnd my granparents, my cuzns, my relatives. oo n den she thinks,, i'll take her bak to our house now n put her in day care n deprive her of any parenly love ***rolls eyes*** ahhh, i m too pissed of right now to say anything more. i hate hate hate em, n dats dat.