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Jarod and I went to dinner two nights ago. I was so nervous that I took 3 shots before I went, had a martini and 4 glasses of wine there, then went to his house and had a mixed drink and another shot. Needless to say I got sick.
Seeing with him broke my heart. Again. I want to be with him so badly. He said he'd tell his fiancee he cheated on her and he'd see what happens with us, but I don't know whether to believe him or not. I want to so badly. Everything felt so right. He called me last night and hopefully I'm seeing him again tomorrow. I don't want to get too into detail because I know too many people who are probably ready to never talk to me again over this, but I do love him.
Seeing with him broke my heart. Again. I want to be with him so badly. He said he'd tell his fiancee he cheated on her and he'd see what happens with us, but I don't know whether to believe him or not. I want to so badly. Everything felt so right. He called me last night and hopefully I'm seeing him again tomorrow. I don't want to get too into detail because I know too many people who are probably ready to never talk to me again over this, but I do love him.