Crazyness
Once again I am back to add another amazing entry in my live-journal. I still cannot believe this thing exists. Lindsay, and I were just sitting down and reading all of the crazy entries that we have written in the past, and i can't believe how much life as change since then. So much of my life is different , and as happened since the "good ol' days" in which i'm referring to high school. I do have to say that I was one of those who was all about life after high school. In many ways I wish i could go back, and be young again. I always say I would love to go back , and redo what i have messed up from my past, but now that i sit here and think about it I really don't. For myself I just look back, and realize that I have matured so much over the last couples years, and I think I may finally be getting a hang of this adult life I've had to live. Today I value things I never thought were so important, and it feels good to know that you really can find your own way through life without something holding your hand every step of the way. Out of high school I wanted the All-American dream. A happy marriage, with kids, and the whole white picket fence. But i have came to realize that this dream no longer exist for most. In a way it would be a dream come true to have this sort of happy ending but I feel it is so hard to find the same mutual feeling with someone of interest. For this I have learned that you cannot depend on others to get you by in life, instead you have to be an independent person. But anyway, I feel like i'm not making any sort of sense. I just had a lot of this on my mind, and i feel better being able to just get it out. For those of you reading enjoy, and hopefully there will be more post to come. and soon..