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i woke up this morning slightly hung over.
then my morning got better as i was cheered up by a great video.
then i was reminded of why i was so angry last night.
and now i'm just as angry, if not more so.
i hate being the last to know everything.
especially when it's about the one person i should know everything about.
little things, big things, it doesn't matter.
and more importantly i hate hate hate being treated like a child
especially in front of my friends.
i don't understand what i am...in this role.
how am i viewed? as someone who is in the way? just there, but barely?
disconnected.
i just needed to vent this out.
because if not, we all know i will just end up throwing a wooden spoon.
and nothing will get solved and i will be even more angry.
cycle never ends. damnit.
apparently i have to say goodbye to my mac too. my mac. :(
then my morning got better as i was cheered up by a great video.
then i was reminded of why i was so angry last night.
and now i'm just as angry, if not more so.
i hate being the last to know everything.
especially when it's about the one person i should know everything about.
little things, big things, it doesn't matter.
and more importantly i hate hate hate being treated like a child
especially in front of my friends.
i don't understand what i am...in this role.
how am i viewed? as someone who is in the way? just there, but barely?
disconnected.
i just needed to vent this out.
because if not, we all know i will just end up throwing a wooden spoon.
and nothing will get solved and i will be even more angry.
cycle never ends. damnit.
apparently i have to say goodbye to my mac too. my mac. :(