When is it MY turn again???
Well, well, well...it's freakin' official (in my mind, Clark doesn't like me like I like him. My evidence? A poem he wrote on his myspace. I KNOW it's directed at me. (sorry, Tiff. When you know what you know, then you know) Oh well. I always bounce back. The punk could've at least wrote me back. Everyone is SO convinced that he liked me, but at the same time, I bought into that and started really liking him. HUGE mistake. Now, I feel SO embarrassed. WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?!?!?!?!
Guys, I'm so lonely though. My life is consumed with hanging out with kids or my girls. I love both sets, but I miss having a relationship with a man. I really do. It's been 3 years now since Eric and I broke and I haven't truly moved on from that. I was fine with being single since I hadn't been single in a while and I think I got comfortable, but now, I'm ready to get back into the swing of things. Freakin' Eric has a kid and everything! And here I am, in the same spot without almost nothing to show for it. I feel and look hideous, so I don't want any attention, but at the same time, I crave it. I stopped caring about the way I look and it's definitely showing. I need to get it together. I need to take back my mind, body and soul. It's starts with ANOTHER trip to the dermatologist. They never know what to give me, but I think I've figured it out. I think I know what I need. (Dr. Joi)
Next, I really need to be consistent with my gym schedule. Like, truly stick to it. Work it out!!! And I need a new hair style. I HATE the poof now. Like, for real for real...HATE it. It breaks out my forehead and cheeks now. I'm telling you, I look the worst I've ever looked in MY LIFE! I didn't look THIS bad when Mom died.
I gotta do it. It's the only way I'm going to regain my sanity. I need to clean out all of the clutter in my life and really re-focus. Get my finances together and start planning ahead. This convo I'm having with myself is really helping me right now. I'm getting over Clark in a healthy way. I know now that I'm getting closer to meeting my husband.
Well, with all of this said, I'm ready to look forward to my future. I had a good talk with my mom and things look a little better. I'm going to check out property (to buy) tomorrow and Sunday!!! :-D Look out world, here's comes a real black woman...educated, beautiful and assertive, but lovable.
Extra-Special Shout-Outs: My future!
Guys, I'm so lonely though. My life is consumed with hanging out with kids or my girls. I love both sets, but I miss having a relationship with a man. I really do. It's been 3 years now since Eric and I broke and I haven't truly moved on from that. I was fine with being single since I hadn't been single in a while and I think I got comfortable, but now, I'm ready to get back into the swing of things. Freakin' Eric has a kid and everything! And here I am, in the same spot without almost nothing to show for it. I feel and look hideous, so I don't want any attention, but at the same time, I crave it. I stopped caring about the way I look and it's definitely showing. I need to get it together. I need to take back my mind, body and soul. It's starts with ANOTHER trip to the dermatologist. They never know what to give me, but I think I've figured it out. I think I know what I need. (Dr. Joi)
Next, I really need to be consistent with my gym schedule. Like, truly stick to it. Work it out!!! And I need a new hair style. I HATE the poof now. Like, for real for real...HATE it. It breaks out my forehead and cheeks now. I'm telling you, I look the worst I've ever looked in MY LIFE! I didn't look THIS bad when Mom died.
I gotta do it. It's the only way I'm going to regain my sanity. I need to clean out all of the clutter in my life and really re-focus. Get my finances together and start planning ahead. This convo I'm having with myself is really helping me right now. I'm getting over Clark in a healthy way. I know now that I'm getting closer to meeting my husband.
Well, with all of this said, I'm ready to look forward to my future. I had a good talk with my mom and things look a little better. I'm going to check out property (to buy) tomorrow and Sunday!!! :-D Look out world, here's comes a real black woman...educated, beautiful and assertive, but lovable.
Extra-Special Shout-Outs: My future!