OK HERES A POST FOR YAH DAMNIT!!!!
Okay so my life is really confusing right now. The only friends I can call friends are people I have met through the computer. How fucking sad is that. All of the friends I concidered my true friends are SHIT!!!! I thought I had a remotely good handle on my judge of chariter but holy shit was I ever wrong! Okay so heres the jist...
A friend of mine did the best thing she could do and dump her boyfriend that didn't treat her the way he should have. He didn't respect her as a person and he didn't embrace her mind and everything that made her well HER. I was proud of her for taking the inititve to get out of something I myself don't have the guts or means to do so. So she goes on and on for a fucking MONTH how horrable and bad and sexist and perverse and pedofile her ex is.... He even came over to her home one day and she flat out told him... (i will never forget this for as long as I live... I might even have to encorporate it in to a story) "I don't entirely trust you are not an asshole!" Yeah i was like go girl! So literally 2 weeks pass and they are back to being friends with benifits... who am I to judge if a girl has her needs and she has a safe way of filling them go a head... but the next day they are back together and the next day they are ENGAGED TO BE FUCKING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!
I mean hello.... when did I miss the fucking memo!!!!! So she tells me this at my best friends birthday party wich ended very badly but there was a lot of alcohol involved and that is a completely diffrent story all together. So I decide to be supportive and the good friend that I am (note to self...STOP IT!!!!) and I tell her that I am proud of her and will be there for her always. She is like "Good because your one of my brides maids" Score.. My supportiveness is paying off 10 fold. I can do it because of the friend I am. So a week goes by and I go to girls night a regular weekly ritual we have and I am completely left out of every conversation that night.. and to top things off my mom was admitted to the ICU of the hospital the day before and put on life support... AND NO ONE TALKS TO ME ABOUT IT!!!! So the night wears on and I sit and watch Degrassi at my friends house all night and then she takes me home and procededs to tell me that I am no longer a brides maid because her WONDERFUL FUCKING FEANCE picked one of his friends to be his groomsman and he hates me so I am the one that gets the shaft... She is worried that he is to immature to keep his mouth shut so I GET BOOTED FROM THE WEDDING PARTY... ME!!!!!!!
Am I missing something here... so that is just one example... just one of many many many... Honestly the only people I seem to connect with any more are my internet friends and shit the only time I can talk to them is when I am at work so the conversations are broken and difficult to follow.. *bangsheadondesk* Why why why is my life so shit... when did it get this way... I swear 3 years ago I was on top of the fucking world... EVERYTHING WAS RIGHT AND I KNEW WHAT THE FUCK WAS GOING ON AND WHO I COULD TRUST....
When did this happen *cries..* When did my best best best friend endup being some guy on the other side of the world and when did all of my awesome aquantinces become 17-19 year olds on the internet that love My Chemical Romance as much as me... Where did all of my so called TRUE friends go... What happend to me.. I am 25 and ready to have my life be over.. how honestly sad is that...
Oh and what is with all the boo hooing about everything in the hp, h/hr world... JESUS FUCKING CHRIST PEOPLE!!!! WE ARE ALL IN THE SAME POSITION.. WE ARE ALL SUPPOSED TO BE SUPPORTIVE OF EACHOTHER... WHEN DID IT TURN IN TO A WOOOO YOU TALK TO THEM AND WOOO YOU DON'T TALK TO THEM... FUCK PEOPLE... GROW UP AND GET SOME SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!! We have enough bad shit comming at all diffrent angles from everywhere else PLEAS PLEASE PLEASE stop stop stop all the intership fighting.. FOR FUCKS SAKE REALLY
well I am done ... like anyone is gonna read this anyway.. no one ever seems to care about anything any more..
A friend of mine did the best thing she could do and dump her boyfriend that didn't treat her the way he should have. He didn't respect her as a person and he didn't embrace her mind and everything that made her well HER. I was proud of her for taking the inititve to get out of something I myself don't have the guts or means to do so. So she goes on and on for a fucking MONTH how horrable and bad and sexist and perverse and pedofile her ex is.... He even came over to her home one day and she flat out told him... (i will never forget this for as long as I live... I might even have to encorporate it in to a story) "I don't entirely trust you are not an asshole!" Yeah i was like go girl! So literally 2 weeks pass and they are back to being friends with benifits... who am I to judge if a girl has her needs and she has a safe way of filling them go a head... but the next day they are back together and the next day they are ENGAGED TO BE FUCKING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!
I mean hello.... when did I miss the fucking memo!!!!! So she tells me this at my best friends birthday party wich ended very badly but there was a lot of alcohol involved and that is a completely diffrent story all together. So I decide to be supportive and the good friend that I am (note to self...STOP IT!!!!) and I tell her that I am proud of her and will be there for her always. She is like "Good because your one of my brides maids" Score.. My supportiveness is paying off 10 fold. I can do it because of the friend I am. So a week goes by and I go to girls night a regular weekly ritual we have and I am completely left out of every conversation that night.. and to top things off my mom was admitted to the ICU of the hospital the day before and put on life support... AND NO ONE TALKS TO ME ABOUT IT!!!! So the night wears on and I sit and watch Degrassi at my friends house all night and then she takes me home and procededs to tell me that I am no longer a brides maid because her WONDERFUL FUCKING FEANCE picked one of his friends to be his groomsman and he hates me so I am the one that gets the shaft... She is worried that he is to immature to keep his mouth shut so I GET BOOTED FROM THE WEDDING PARTY... ME!!!!!!!
Am I missing something here... so that is just one example... just one of many many many... Honestly the only people I seem to connect with any more are my internet friends and shit the only time I can talk to them is when I am at work so the conversations are broken and difficult to follow.. *bangsheadondesk* Why why why is my life so shit... when did it get this way... I swear 3 years ago I was on top of the fucking world... EVERYTHING WAS RIGHT AND I KNEW WHAT THE FUCK WAS GOING ON AND WHO I COULD TRUST....
When did this happen *cries..* When did my best best best friend endup being some guy on the other side of the world and when did all of my awesome aquantinces become 17-19 year olds on the internet that love My Chemical Romance as much as me... Where did all of my so called TRUE friends go... What happend to me.. I am 25 and ready to have my life be over.. how honestly sad is that...
Oh and what is with all the boo hooing about everything in the hp, h/hr world... JESUS FUCKING CHRIST PEOPLE!!!! WE ARE ALL IN THE SAME POSITION.. WE ARE ALL SUPPOSED TO BE SUPPORTIVE OF EACHOTHER... WHEN DID IT TURN IN TO A WOOOO YOU TALK TO THEM AND WOOO YOU DON'T TALK TO THEM... FUCK PEOPLE... GROW UP AND GET SOME SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!! We have enough bad shit comming at all diffrent angles from everywhere else PLEAS PLEASE PLEASE stop stop stop all the intership fighting.. FOR FUCKS SAKE REALLY
well I am done ... like anyone is gonna read this anyway.. no one ever seems to care about anything any more..