questions left unanswered
We shared so much together. Five years …why did you actually make it reach the five year mark and not mention a thing? There’s so much more I wish we could have shared. So much for that post apocalyptic dream of yours. Have you even taken time off from your busy schedule to consider our relationship? I’m waiting… I don’t want to, but I can’t help it. I still see hope. I don’t want to because I’m so hurt, but I love you. I want to know if there is anything else you need to tell me. If you don’t want me anymore. I really want to be hurt so that I won’t give a shit so I can move on! Demetre… does the time we spent together mean anything to you? I knew you told me from the start you never planned to marry. I didn’t expect it, but you gave me hope a time or two. I should’ve known better than to have listened to you in your drunken speech. I feel so used. So lonely. So unloved. I didn’t just lose your love. I lost my best friend. My only friend. I was there for you when you needed me..when you only had me and it saddens me that now that I need you, you don’t care. You have someone else. You have friends now, and I just got left behind. I got pushed aside. I had friends. I just lost touch because you needed me then and I didn’t mind because I thought we were in love. I didn’t think you’d break my heart. You loved me the way I was. The way I am. We shared so much together. You were my first everything. I can’t believe you don’t want me in your life after all we’ve been through. What is it that I did? Is it what I’ve become? Pathetic. Hopeless. Boring. Ugly.