I hate this shit!
So i took the night off tonight, so that i could relax during the day, and spend some time with Jarrod...Yea well it seems that all my plans get shattered! Jarrod was in a bad mood all day. And now he is telling me that he doesnt know if he wants to talk to me... Is it just me... or is tonight going to be a really shitty rest of the night? Whatever, i took the night off and i am determined to have a decent night. I have a monsterous headache starting and when that happens it means its going to be there ALL night long, and maybe into tomorrow! UGH!!! I honestly just want to scream! Things have been so dis-organized lately, and just out of place. I dont know what i want anymore...one day i will feel like i am set on something, but the next its like i dont even know anymore? What the hell is wrong with me!? Or is it just the age? It kinda feels like everything that i once had, or found security in, was pulled right out from underneath me! I just kinda feel like i am in a free fall of life. I dont know how i will feel tomorrow, or what i will do or say. Im completely lost....