well summer is closing out

[hookitup_phatyo]

well last night weak and me had one of the most fucked up nights ever. i cant even really explain what happened but ill try. weak and i had gotten shrooms and were going to do them on sunday night. the thing is i didnt want to bc i was tired from work and i wish i would of stayed home. we shroom and to make the story short it was the most fucked up i have ever been and the most fucked up i have ever seen nick. it was heart breaking to see nicks mom and her concern and how scared she seemed. i dunno i feel like a complete asshole to my mom and nicks parents i know there is nothing i can say to make it better for either side. nick and i are still cool except im not sure how much we will be hanging out anymore which sucks. we have hung out almost everyday day all summer. but its almost over so fuck it. good news though is i think my mom and i are going to be getting closer. its the first time i have ever meant what i have said to here about drugs and stuff like that and i think she believes me. i will never do drugs again i have decided this, this morning. I WILL NEVER DO DRUGS AGAIN! i swore on my dads name on this and i will stick to it. drugs are stupid and dumb i dont know how people can be so stupid and keep going back to drugs after constant getting in trouble. they ruin your life and for sure know this now. im happy i got to see adrienne bc she made me feel a lot better this morning and i hope she knows how happy she makes me. shes an amazing girl, muah to her. to all my friends you guys are the best espically the kids i see everyday(john, weak, tiny, bobby, jmo) and a few of them that i wish i could see more (heather, alissa, a few more) i keep getting this feeling that this may of been one of the best summrs of my life. theres only 2 things i wish i hadnt of done this year, wasted some of it on drugs and not see brian more. he will probable always be my best friend no matter how far apart we are. i have many good friends and i love my life, grounded or not doesnt matter im just happy to be here.

nick hopefully you and i will be able to see eachother again after this