OMG scott got kicked off American Idol, how pissed am I?
my head is heavy and my eyes lids are 10 times the normal weight but in my bed is not where i want to be
I apologize for this
This is me, a mind that has been damaged leaving the body frail. I'm weak in every instance but will always be too strong to give up. My dreams have been overshadowed by past night mares and all I wanna do is wake up, see the light, and find you sitting over there making me feel safe again. I miss you and every time I feel it hurt I remember the day you told me you, would always be proud of me and how much we knew it was going to hurt. But I never knew it would be like this, feeling like I never learned what I was suppose to. I miss you and cant wait to hear the laugh that cheered me up even when i felt like I do now. My best friend. Only the people who truly know me, knew you. I'd shot for the stars if they were up to your level but it's hard to find the right direction when you cant see where your going. I miss the feeling of completeness I used to feel, because now I feel unfinished. I wonder if you ever felt like I do because that gives me hope that someday I will be as good as you are. I'm not as tough as you were, not as smart as you were, but I hope someday I will be as happy as you were. My past shows up the present but gives me hope to the future. I sit on the dock recalling everything that made me happy. The things that make me get up everyday, simple memories.
putting the wrong piece in the puzzle will never make a beautiful picture, so take a look at me now, and realize we all have flaws
I'm not sure what I wrote, its not a poem, nor a story, and I don't even know if it explains what im feeling right now because honestly I don't know what I feel like. How do you know if you are feeling happy, sad, lonely, depressed, or even numb? Is it possible to explain feeling.
I wanna say thank you to Alissa and Heather because they made me this awesome cake today. Honestly it was one of the best cakes I have ever had. Not lying at all. I' talking about some master chefs we have over here.
EVERYONE PEER PRESSURE ME INTO DOING MY HOMEWORK, THATS THE ONLY WAY I WILL BE ABLE TO DRIVE A CAR THIS SUMMER IS IF I DO WELL. I'm motivated though so even if I kill myself from sleep deprivation (lol), I'll still be able to drive.