Wow
I really never thought I'd be happy right now, but I am. It's amazing what complete honesty will do. I wont go into detail because I've already ranted about it enough (yeah I know, I rant when its bad but wont spill when it's good news). Needless to say though, I can't believe what 24 hours and 3 serious chats will do. I feel like an entirely different person right now. It's totally uplifting. That's not to say that I'm completely subconsciously okay with the idea, but I'm definitely getting there which is great. If nothing else, I'm content and what's more, feeling freed. I no longer have that feeling like it's my job to be involved. I'm content now to just sit back and that's what I was aiming for. I was really glad Dave Kells called today but now I'm wondering how it's gonna be when he calls me back tomorrow to chat about my problem and I say its no longer an issue. Heh, he's probably going to see me as a flak with an unstable, constantly changing mental condition. I'm a case study, yes I admit it. OOOO! I just heard my stomach rumble. Maybe my appetite's returning too. Yes, I know, maybe I'm TOO excited right now and I'm only setting myself up for a fall, but hey, I'm going to ride this as long as I can. I feel great, about myself and about my relationship with others. Thanks to you, you know who you are. That chat tonight did wonders, I can't say that enough. I'm so sorry for my behavior, but I promise it's different now. Love you. Night all!