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Spring break begins. 11 more days of days like this? I don't know if I really want them....
yesterday a friend suggested she will pick me up &we will hang out but she did not tell me she would not come and today she didn't contact me at all.
i guess it's karma maybe,and you know what, i know it's fucking not,i'm just really insulted
maplestory getting boring... ip layed for sometime already today...
i should watch tha tcartoon,will cheer me up, bu ti can't watch when i'm not totally alone,idk not in perverted way but in a i really like to enjoy it quietly without interruptions
maybe i will walk the dog twice today... huh,guess i will.
i txted a friend if she wanted to go for coffee i guess she doesnt does everyone hate me?
sigh i know they don't i sound like a baby... want a boyfriend/girlfriend,want tmoney fame blabla don't we all
blank and bored and don't care... bahh
hope my next post has more action,i have thought of this blog many times and expressing my darker and happier feelings both here,but somehow it ends up as a whine.
gomen.
we'll talk soon,journal :)..
edit: i forgot something very important.
my first love has a new boyfriend. they got together 2 days before her birthday.
when i first saw i almost cried from relief. of course later on i was more flustered... "already,huh...?" but she won't forget me.
and i will never forget her.
i hope she is still happy.
and fuck, let me say from Scott Pilgrim movie... "he's a creep, you're a bitch, and you all deserve each other" X'DD
it's true though. i love her still somehow, not romantically... this feeling will be with me always :-) i wish her great happiness and safety in the future for her and her lover,famliy,friends, children etc.
(but let me add she is missing out on one great shitstorm of a person over here. xD really. no one will love her like i did.
but the boy now,no one will love her like he does. it's different everytime, right? :-) )
so now I think this is really it for today. i updated the important things.
x
yesterday a friend suggested she will pick me up &we will hang out but she did not tell me she would not come and today she didn't contact me at all.
i guess it's karma maybe,and you know what, i know it's fucking not,i'm just really insulted
maplestory getting boring... ip layed for sometime already today...
i should watch tha tcartoon,will cheer me up, bu ti can't watch when i'm not totally alone,idk not in perverted way but in a i really like to enjoy it quietly without interruptions
maybe i will walk the dog twice today... huh,guess i will.
i txted a friend if she wanted to go for coffee i guess she doesnt does everyone hate me?
sigh i know they don't i sound like a baby... want a boyfriend/girlfriend,want tmoney fame blabla don't we all
blank and bored and don't care... bahh
hope my next post has more action,i have thought of this blog many times and expressing my darker and happier feelings both here,but somehow it ends up as a whine.
gomen.
we'll talk soon,journal :)..
edit: i forgot something very important.
my first love has a new boyfriend. they got together 2 days before her birthday.
when i first saw i almost cried from relief. of course later on i was more flustered... "already,huh...?" but she won't forget me.
and i will never forget her.
i hope she is still happy.
and fuck, let me say from Scott Pilgrim movie... "he's a creep, you're a bitch, and you all deserve each other" X'DD
it's true though. i love her still somehow, not romantically... this feeling will be with me always :-) i wish her great happiness and safety in the future for her and her lover,famliy,friends, children etc.
(but let me add she is missing out on one great shitstorm of a person over here. xD really. no one will love her like i did.
but the boy now,no one will love her like he does. it's different everytime, right? :-) )
so now I think this is really it for today. i updated the important things.
x