Change
Change is all around me. New website. New journal. New home.
Its been just over a week since I drove from BC to Ontario with my friend, Sarah. Im continually told how amazed people are that I did it. Not only took the plunge to move across multiple provinces, but to drive there. Oddly enough I know of at least 3 other people who did the same thing this year (did we all start a trend?!?!) and I find myself oddly unimpressed by it all. Well of course I drove across the country, I wanted to.
I may be impulsive, I may have ideas that come from left field, but when I make up my mind, it is made up. I will move mountains to make something happen. That is when obsessive tendencies really work in your favour!
Everybody loves a winner, so nobody loved me
I knew that leaving BC was something I needed to do for my mental health. I was spinning my wheels, getting no further ahead and no further behind. I had lost my core group of friends long ago, and with my relationship over and moving forward from there, I found that I wanted, and needed, more.
So I moved across the country. Because, well, why not?
I spent 8 years away from my family, being independent, living my own life, watching people grow and change from afar. Finally, I realized, I wanted to be a part of their change. I wanted to grow with everyone else. I wanted those who had once been closest to me, friends and family alike, to celebrate and be a part of my change as well as being able to celebrate their change.
Right now I have no job, Im living with my mother as I fire off resumes and housing inquires, and even though its overwhelming and discouraging at times, I stay true to my need and desire for change. More change is a-coming, it just takes some time to uncover it. Truly, I never shy away from change because it is hard. I may stall, I may meet hardships, but for me the alternative of continuing to remain isolated and lonely was a choice that made itself.
I am excited to be a part of all of your changes.
All the odds are in my favour
Somethings bound to give in
Its gonna happen, happen sometime
Maybe this time Ill win
Its been just over a week since I drove from BC to Ontario with my friend, Sarah. Im continually told how amazed people are that I did it. Not only took the plunge to move across multiple provinces, but to drive there. Oddly enough I know of at least 3 other people who did the same thing this year (did we all start a trend?!?!) and I find myself oddly unimpressed by it all. Well of course I drove across the country, I wanted to.
I may be impulsive, I may have ideas that come from left field, but when I make up my mind, it is made up. I will move mountains to make something happen. That is when obsessive tendencies really work in your favour!
Everybody loves a winner, so nobody loved me
I knew that leaving BC was something I needed to do for my mental health. I was spinning my wheels, getting no further ahead and no further behind. I had lost my core group of friends long ago, and with my relationship over and moving forward from there, I found that I wanted, and needed, more.
So I moved across the country. Because, well, why not?
I spent 8 years away from my family, being independent, living my own life, watching people grow and change from afar. Finally, I realized, I wanted to be a part of their change. I wanted to grow with everyone else. I wanted those who had once been closest to me, friends and family alike, to celebrate and be a part of my change as well as being able to celebrate their change.
Right now I have no job, Im living with my mother as I fire off resumes and housing inquires, and even though its overwhelming and discouraging at times, I stay true to my need and desire for change. More change is a-coming, it just takes some time to uncover it. Truly, I never shy away from change because it is hard. I may stall, I may meet hardships, but for me the alternative of continuing to remain isolated and lonely was a choice that made itself.
I am excited to be a part of all of your changes.
All the odds are in my favour
Somethings bound to give in
Its gonna happen, happen sometime
Maybe this time Ill win