Appointments Post

[honorthecode]

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[Action] | November 11 | Around the Turtle House /o/

[semper_cogitans]

[On this particular day, cold and blustery as it (and indeed, the week) had proved to be, Robert is hoping that neither of his reptilian housemates are out and about - but especially Leo, because he has a certain thing to talk to him about, as per a suggestion by Don.

Knowledge of the turtles' respective patterns after living with them for some time means that Robert expects to come across Leo meditating or practising his katas. So that's why he's lurking around the back room uncomfortably, knocking on the door like he expects to instantly be a bother.]

... Leonardo?

[Action] | November 11 | Around the Turtle House /o/

[honorthecode]

[Will all the snow falling, Leo's definitely been indoors more than usual. At the knock he raises an eye ridge. He reaches out to see who's chi it is, only to not find any. Either they left, or...]

The door's not locked. [He opens his eyes to eye the door, still sitting cross legged for now.]

[semper_cogitans]

Ah... thank you. [A moment after this, Robert opens the door, craning his head just inside timidly to look at Leo.]

... Could I, er... speak to you for awhile? [Hastily, he amends:] Ah - it is... n-nothing vital, but... but if you had the time...

[honorthecode]

Of course, come sit down.

[He'll motion for the floor nearby, if he wants to sit there.]

[semper_cogitans]

[And the scientist crosses the floor before taking up a seated position on the mat near Leo. It's not quite seiza, but it is a little more poised than the usual way he sits - albeit he sits primly enough most of the time.

For a moment, he seems to be searching himself, trying to find the right words. But to begin:]

Ah - thank you...

...

[He fidgets. Suddenly all the preparation - the few days of trying to psyche himself up for this - sort of dies in the water.]

... I... I was told I should... speak to you about... perfectionism. Because... b-because we both have... a habit of it.

[honorthecode]

[Leo makes the position look so easy. But at least he's not making him kneel? Leo has a feeling this isn't a social call though. Robert's there for a reason and it's probably not meditating.]

Did Don suggest it?

[semper_cogitans]

[Is it really that obvious? But Robert nods a little hesitantly, after a moment.]

... He said it might be... mutually beneficial.

...

Though I... a-am not certain exactly what he wants us to discuss in regards to it...

[honorthecode]

[Well, it was his first guess. He wonders what Don was thinking though.]

Hm, I'm sure he had a reason. But...I have noticed we do tend to do similar things. [Like the cleaning.]

[semper_cogitans]

... D-Do you have that same... need to do them? The compulsion...? [Robert fidgets suddenly, wringing his fingers - that's another common one from him, as Leo should know well by now.] ... And... does it make decisions... difficult, sometimes?

[honorthecode]

I have a want to get things right, to do things right. Training, cooking, keeping things clean.

[He closes his eyes for a moment. Leo's noticed that.]

But working with three brothers, I've also learned to compromise. [Because his brothers aren't always perfect.]

[semper_cogitans]

How do you... separate the compulsions, then? [How does he stop himself from being paralyzed by indecision? How does he stop himself from locking up and running away rather than failing?]

[honorthecode]

[And Leo hasn't failed?]

It depends on the situation. For me it's easier to push it aside in battle, than it is in normal things.

I focus on what's at hand. Getting what needs to be done, done. Can deal with the consequences later.

[semper_cogitans]

[Not to Robert. Or at least, Robert's never seen Leo doing anything he'd describe as failing.]

So... f-focusing on... on what is necessary to do rather than... the ways it could go wrong...?

[honorthecode]

Yes, it helps you to accomplish more. [He regards Robert for a moment, watching his reactions and expressions.]

Have you been having issues?

[semper_cogitans]

[He nods, a little shamefully.]

... I... I often find myself... having difficulty doing anything, because... because I worry I will... fail.

And... and then I end up doing nothing at all...

[honorthecode]

A wise man once told me that someone who never fails, never learns. [Of course he's changed a couple of words, but it's basically the same.]

Striving for perfection is fine. But it's also fine to not always be perfect. It's what you do after those failures that matters.