Focus...steady...steady
Ker-snick. The world drops away to a black dot down range and the notch and post 2 feet from my eye. Steady hand, steady breathing. Focus, hold and pull. Control the recoil, level and steady and focus and pull and pull.
I'm damn edgy lately, without any particular reason. I'm tired but too wound up to sleep well. Might just be I need to work out and haven't in a while. More and more lately I feel I'm losing my edge, all of my edges and getting dull. I'm not working anywhere near hard enough at school and it bothers me. Yes I know I'm sick, but I'd rather be working my ass off for 7 hours a day that just goofing off, killing time. Time is one of the things I hate to waste, there's always something better to be doing, but what?.
I met with my advisor and she's reasonably certain if I continue to overload I'll be able to get a Masters in my major within 4 years and most likely not have to pay extra for it. I look forward to the challenge. There's a difference between being challenging and just being hard. I'm not sure where it lies, I suppose it is linked in someway to my relative interest.
It continues to suprise me how much I do is based on control and self discipline. Even my academics is a form of this needs doing and I can do it, Bring it on! I wonder if i can scare up a set of snowshoes from someone...if i had thought about it I could have brought mine.
Been wandering around on guard all day yesterday and today, no clue why. Just very wound up. We've reached an impasse with the perpetual motion machine that needs a bit more time to think through, and there's only so much time i can spend playing magic or other forms of recreation. I don't really want to get a job as it would tie up time, maybe I'll just fill in odd hours with the gym as a time sink.
Even though I'm moving forward it feels like I'm spinning my wheels now...don't know how that works. Maybe it has something to do with my classes this term not being in my major or being of any interest really.
Focus...
I'm damn edgy lately, without any particular reason. I'm tired but too wound up to sleep well. Might just be I need to work out and haven't in a while. More and more lately I feel I'm losing my edge, all of my edges and getting dull. I'm not working anywhere near hard enough at school and it bothers me. Yes I know I'm sick, but I'd rather be working my ass off for 7 hours a day that just goofing off, killing time. Time is one of the things I hate to waste, there's always something better to be doing, but what?.
I met with my advisor and she's reasonably certain if I continue to overload I'll be able to get a Masters in my major within 4 years and most likely not have to pay extra for it. I look forward to the challenge. There's a difference between being challenging and just being hard. I'm not sure where it lies, I suppose it is linked in someway to my relative interest.
It continues to suprise me how much I do is based on control and self discipline. Even my academics is a form of this needs doing and I can do it, Bring it on! I wonder if i can scare up a set of snowshoes from someone...if i had thought about it I could have brought mine.
Been wandering around on guard all day yesterday and today, no clue why. Just very wound up. We've reached an impasse with the perpetual motion machine that needs a bit more time to think through, and there's only so much time i can spend playing magic or other forms of recreation. I don't really want to get a job as it would tie up time, maybe I'll just fill in odd hours with the gym as a time sink.
Even though I'm moving forward it feels like I'm spinning my wheels now...don't know how that works. Maybe it has something to do with my classes this term not being in my major or being of any interest really.
Focus...