**7; Text [apologies]
Things have been getting far too out of control. I can’t help but to think.. . these feelings are far too familiar.
[PRIVATE to Zack**UNHACKABLE]
Zack, I’m sorry I haven’t been the man you knew. There are many reasons for my actions and it’s been very hard to come to terms with most of them. And it’s been unforgivable how little time I’ve spent with you for how long I’ve been here. I do miss you, but I’m afraid it’s too soon for me to be close to anyone at the moment. There are many things I need to work out with myself before I can even hope to help anyone else. [/private]
[PRIVATE to Genesis**UNHACKABLE]
Genesis, I wish I could help. And I wish you could tell me anything again. But I suppose it’s been too long for me to expect anything like that. I’ve seen the fall of ShinRa and the end of the world. I’ve even seen the start of the new world at home. And while it was all very vague, I saw what happens. Being in the lifestream isn’t all disadvantages. I told you my goals indirectly and I can’t give them up. I’m afraid they will be the only things keeping me sane here. And I am worried. About you. I don’t know where you are and I haven’t seen hide or tail of you. Maybe you want things like this. And maybe I’m holding on too much on what was. -- But wandering around in this ash can’t be good. Be careful, please. [/private]
[PRIVATE to Sephiroth**UNHACKABLE]
Sephiroth, there’s not much more I can do. For anyone. I can barely muster up any advice for anything. I know what I want to do for others but it just seems impossible now. I can hardly remember what honor means to me. I hope this clears up soon. But Genesis did adore you. Maybe the word is a bit… over stated, but he wished to be level with you. It wasn’t fair to him, he thought. Everything that happened. And maybe this is how I think he’s viewing it, but he was envious of you. Being leader of the ShinRa Army. While all he received was a division and little attention from it. Maybe it was the age difference. But telling him to “rot”… without doubt did it. And I know the you that‘s here. The you that was. You’re not the Sephiroth from Nibelheim. You haven’t gone mad.
I doubt Genesis can differentiate you and the man who told him that. Both were you, and you are here. He seeks revenge and you just so happened to be here for him to dish it to. I’m not warning you because I am not even sure what he plans to do or wants to do. He and I are at shambles and I’m trying to pick the pieces up and put them back together. I can’t seeing how talking to him about it can resolve any issues but… I can’t see how it can’t hurt anyone either. If at anything it can open some doors. I’m not saying you do anything either. I won’t force anyone to do anything. I just thought you should know what I finally figured out. [/private]
[PRIVATE to Aerith**UNHACKABLE]
Aerith, I’m sorry to have tossed your emotions around. And to have bothered you with everything I’ve been feeling. I mustn’t be the man you’ve heard so much about and I’m sorry to have let Zack down because of it. I can’t tell you if I will ever be what I was, but once I figure things out, I’ll try to be. You told me that friends are not an inconvenience but understand. I was SOLDIER my entire life, practically. I understand what you mean, I do but… to do what I did and what I said.. Would have been considered childish and unacceptable. But moreover I wanted to thank you.
You’ve reminded me much of my mother. She was kind and beautiful, much like yourself. Perhaps that’s why I have been able to do and say what I have to you. She was the one I could always have gone to had I felt Genesis didn’t know what he was talking about. And she was the one who I loved very dearly, the one who would have done anything for me. So, thank you Aerith. For everything you’ve said and done for me up until now. [/private]
[PRIVATE to Gracia**UNHACKABLE]
Gracia, I am terribly sorry. I didn’t mean to make your acquaintance and… have all this happen. It wasn’t my intention. I must have made Genesis seem far too caring, the way I’ve been acting. But it has been a very rough patch for me. This isn’t who I usually am. I hope for you to forgive my actions as of late. And perhaps once I piece myself together we might be able to start something over. Give each other a second chance at a first impression. You are a very intelligent, wonderful woman to know. And I feel horrible for having put you though all this as well. Please don’t worry about me. It’s a phase, I know. Similar things have happened. But also, thank you for your kind words. I may not have acted it, but they did help me. [/private]
[PRIVATE to Honey**UNHACKABLE]
Honey, … goodness. I’m sorry for have worrying you. It wasn’t what it seemed, I’m sure. But I am fine. So please, don’t worry about me. And I’m sorry for have scolded you about your voice level. I had developed a hunger headache, and well, it was rather harrowing for me. Genesis may have spoken to you of me being… something he looked to but. I haven’t shown myself to be, and I am sorry for slashing his word and dirtying my own image. It’s my hope that these feelings will work themselves out soon. But please, in the meantime, don’t worry too much about me. I’ll be fine. Things will work themselves out soon. [/private]
{ooc; ahahaha. This isn’t foreshadowing. I swear.
2/3 posts before hiatus. Posting hiatus on… the 26th. Along with his last post… the 27th.
Not replying, Angeal fried the wires on his communicator from throwing it around too much, it’s not that I hate you suddenly I swear;;.
Same for the his last post. Sorry guys LMao;;; }
[PRIVATE to Zack**UNHACKABLE]
Zack, I’m sorry I haven’t been the man you knew. There are many reasons for my actions and it’s been very hard to come to terms with most of them. And it’s been unforgivable how little time I’ve spent with you for how long I’ve been here. I do miss you, but I’m afraid it’s too soon for me to be close to anyone at the moment. There are many things I need to work out with myself before I can even hope to help anyone else. [/private]
[PRIVATE to Genesis**UNHACKABLE]
Genesis, I wish I could help. And I wish you could tell me anything again. But I suppose it’s been too long for me to expect anything like that. I’ve seen the fall of ShinRa and the end of the world. I’ve even seen the start of the new world at home. And while it was all very vague, I saw what happens. Being in the lifestream isn’t all disadvantages. I told you my goals indirectly and I can’t give them up. I’m afraid they will be the only things keeping me sane here. And I am worried. About you. I don’t know where you are and I haven’t seen hide or tail of you. Maybe you want things like this. And maybe I’m holding on too much on what was. -- But wandering around in this ash can’t be good. Be careful, please. [/private]
[PRIVATE to Sephiroth**UNHACKABLE]
Sephiroth, there’s not much more I can do. For anyone. I can barely muster up any advice for anything. I know what I want to do for others but it just seems impossible now. I can hardly remember what honor means to me. I hope this clears up soon. But Genesis did adore you. Maybe the word is a bit… over stated, but he wished to be level with you. It wasn’t fair to him, he thought. Everything that happened. And maybe this is how I think he’s viewing it, but he was envious of you. Being leader of the ShinRa Army. While all he received was a division and little attention from it. Maybe it was the age difference. But telling him to “rot”… without doubt did it. And I know the you that‘s here. The you that was. You’re not the Sephiroth from Nibelheim. You haven’t gone mad.
I doubt Genesis can differentiate you and the man who told him that. Both were you, and you are here. He seeks revenge and you just so happened to be here for him to dish it to. I’m not warning you because I am not even sure what he plans to do or wants to do. He and I are at shambles and I’m trying to pick the pieces up and put them back together. I can’t seeing how talking to him about it can resolve any issues but… I can’t see how it can’t hurt anyone either. If at anything it can open some doors. I’m not saying you do anything either. I won’t force anyone to do anything. I just thought you should know what I finally figured out. [/private]
[PRIVATE to Aerith**UNHACKABLE]
Aerith, I’m sorry to have tossed your emotions around. And to have bothered you with everything I’ve been feeling. I mustn’t be the man you’ve heard so much about and I’m sorry to have let Zack down because of it. I can’t tell you if I will ever be what I was, but once I figure things out, I’ll try to be. You told me that friends are not an inconvenience but understand. I was SOLDIER my entire life, practically. I understand what you mean, I do but… to do what I did and what I said.. Would have been considered childish and unacceptable. But moreover I wanted to thank you.
You’ve reminded me much of my mother. She was kind and beautiful, much like yourself. Perhaps that’s why I have been able to do and say what I have to you. She was the one I could always have gone to had I felt Genesis didn’t know what he was talking about. And she was the one who I loved very dearly, the one who would have done anything for me. So, thank you Aerith. For everything you’ve said and done for me up until now. [/private]
[PRIVATE to Gracia**UNHACKABLE]
Gracia, I am terribly sorry. I didn’t mean to make your acquaintance and… have all this happen. It wasn’t my intention. I must have made Genesis seem far too caring, the way I’ve been acting. But it has been a very rough patch for me. This isn’t who I usually am. I hope for you to forgive my actions as of late. And perhaps once I piece myself together we might be able to start something over. Give each other a second chance at a first impression. You are a very intelligent, wonderful woman to know. And I feel horrible for having put you though all this as well. Please don’t worry about me. It’s a phase, I know. Similar things have happened. But also, thank you for your kind words. I may not have acted it, but they did help me. [/private]
[PRIVATE to Honey**UNHACKABLE]
Honey, … goodness. I’m sorry for have worrying you. It wasn’t what it seemed, I’m sure. But I am fine. So please, don’t worry about me. And I’m sorry for have scolded you about your voice level. I had developed a hunger headache, and well, it was rather harrowing for me. Genesis may have spoken to you of me being… something he looked to but. I haven’t shown myself to be, and I am sorry for slashing his word and dirtying my own image. It’s my hope that these feelings will work themselves out soon. But please, in the meantime, don’t worry too much about me. I’ll be fine. Things will work themselves out soon. [/private]
{ooc; ahahaha. This isn’t foreshadowing. I swear.
2/3 posts before hiatus. Posting hiatus on… the 26th. Along with his last post… the 27th.
Not replying, Angeal fried the wires on his communicator from throwing it around too much, it’s not that I hate you suddenly I swear;;.
Same for the his last post. Sorry guys LMao;;; }