Stretched Too Thin
I'm really just ready to say fuck this shit. I feel like I have to fight my way into this group of people because this dumb bitch doesn't like me because she thinks I'm trying to take away "her" [not] guy. First of all, he's not fucking hers, they're not fucking together. Second of all, I have absolutely NO interest in Eric anymore, it was a one-off and now it's done.
I just feel like... I don't know. So stressed out about what if these people change their minds about me, especially since one of their tight friends seems to hate me, and just kick me out? The obvious rejection would really hurt, seriously. And I'd never get to see Chels anymore which would make me even sadder. It just constantly feels like these people never get to see my good side and I'm always a fuckin' idiot around them because I get so stressed out and nervous that something's going to go wrong. IDK.
When have I ever cared this much that a certain group of people liked me? It's seriously bullshit that I'm this stressed about it, but I am. I haven't slept in days because I'm always out doing something, I work all the time, I have family shit, Brad's coming back on Sunday so I have to decide for good if I'm going to be with him or not, all the free time I have I have to divide between this group of people that I feel like I need to impress and my Heather-friends and my Palatine friends and my Glencoe Beach/Barrington friends... I feel like I'm being stretched too thin. Add the fact that school is starting like...NOW to all of this and I feel ready to pop. Seriously.
I don't even know who I can talk to about this because Chelsea seems to just get pissed when I come to her, and whenever I see anyone else I usually don't have the energy to get into it. I just feel like I'm going to explode.
--Anya--
I just feel like... I don't know. So stressed out about what if these people change their minds about me, especially since one of their tight friends seems to hate me, and just kick me out? The obvious rejection would really hurt, seriously. And I'd never get to see Chels anymore which would make me even sadder. It just constantly feels like these people never get to see my good side and I'm always a fuckin' idiot around them because I get so stressed out and nervous that something's going to go wrong. IDK.
When have I ever cared this much that a certain group of people liked me? It's seriously bullshit that I'm this stressed about it, but I am. I haven't slept in days because I'm always out doing something, I work all the time, I have family shit, Brad's coming back on Sunday so I have to decide for good if I'm going to be with him or not, all the free time I have I have to divide between this group of people that I feel like I need to impress and my Heather-friends and my Palatine friends and my Glencoe Beach/Barrington friends... I feel like I'm being stretched too thin. Add the fact that school is starting like...NOW to all of this and I feel ready to pop. Seriously.
I don't even know who I can talk to about this because Chelsea seems to just get pissed when I come to her, and whenever I see anyone else I usually don't have the energy to get into it. I just feel like I'm going to explode.
--Anya--