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For the record, Mother's Day in my house is going to be cancelled. We will send my wonderful mother in law some flowers, but Mother's Day in this home in Kentucky is not going to be mentioned this year.
Some days I do so well in dealing with my mother's death and other days I just get really really down.
If she were here she would tell me to quit feeling sorry for myself.
Damn you, mother, why didn't you just take your insulin shots?
I miss you like hell. When the boy started to drive, when I wanted to tell you about x getting thrown in jail, everything. But no, fuck us. You didn't want to take care of your diabetes, laughed at the doctor when he told you are killing yourself and here I am. Motherless. Since you were without your mother for 40 years, you know the drill. Mother, which flower am I supposed to wear if I go to church? I know that there is a special one for motherless daughters, but I don't know which color.
Most will spend the day with their mother. I will spend my first mother's day as a motherless daughter who is also a mother.
It has gotten me down.
Some days I do so well in dealing with my mother's death and other days I just get really really down.
If she were here she would tell me to quit feeling sorry for myself.
Damn you, mother, why didn't you just take your insulin shots?
I miss you like hell. When the boy started to drive, when I wanted to tell you about x getting thrown in jail, everything. But no, fuck us. You didn't want to take care of your diabetes, laughed at the doctor when he told you are killing yourself and here I am. Motherless. Since you were without your mother for 40 years, you know the drill. Mother, which flower am I supposed to wear if I go to church? I know that there is a special one for motherless daughters, but I don't know which color.
Most will spend the day with their mother. I will spend my first mother's day as a motherless daughter who is also a mother.
It has gotten me down.