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[honkeymagoo]

Ok so the following are emails I have sent and have recieved from my ex Haley. Shes currently taking a semester in Ireland. We broke up over a year ago and havn't gotten along very well since but we have tried to be friends. There have been alot of lies told in that time. She didn't call me or try to get ahold of me at all before she left for

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[anonymous]

Me:
Okay. You want to play this game? Let's play.
I am sitting here in Ireland...removed from EVERYONE. After about a month, I get a HOSTILE e-mail from you yelling at me because I haven't talked to you in a long time. The next e-mail I get? Yelling about how you're getting rid of Pharoah. Sorry I can't paste in quotes like you did - I deleted those e-mails because they were negative and I am trying to only remember positive things about you. Apparently you don't feel the same way. The next e-mail? A bit calmer. We begin to write e-mails back and forth every once in a while about 'How are you' and 'Hopefully we can be friends'. I thought we were making progress. Then I get an e-mail telling me this: "Then I find out from your new best friend that you dont think you can be friends with me because you will feel negativly towards me. Did you plan on telling me this?" To which one of the lines I replied, "My new best friend? No, she's not my best friend, and she's hardly a 'new' acquintence." Did you include that quote in the e-mail you sent us both to try to make Heather mad at me? Were you gonna tell her that directly after that, I wrote, "But I don't hate her like you do, and if she's happy, then I'm happy for her because you know what, she's already doing better than me. I hope that I, too, am happy one day." No-we all know that Graca and Clarissa are my best friends. And why would Heather be a new acquaintence when I've known her for...what 3, 4 years now? So why were you trying to use that statement against me? Even if we WANTED to be Best Friends Forever....she wouldn't be 'My New Best Friend', she'd be an old friend still, since I've known her for years!
I asked you in the e-mail before and I'll ask you again....wait I'll quote it for you....I think I still have that e-mail since I just sent it...."And why are you concerned that she and I had talked? ... I'm not trying to keep secrets from you or lie to you. Why would I do that? What the fuck could I possibly gain from it? Why do you still think that I would do that? You are so quick and easy to find some reason the hate me or think badly of me." So why, when we talked online, did you get moody when you found out that Heather and I were still talking?
Oh, and another thing. You keep saying that you don't get any 'Hey How are ya's' from me. So you haven't recieved the postcard or the Halloween card? The 'Hey, how are ya's' that I never heard back from.........? Oh, wait...I did hear back.......that's right....you e-mailed me to yell at me about something else......
I told you in the e-mail before.....I think I can quote this one, too: "I am not lashing out or claiming to be perfect and innocent. " Sure, I am to blame for these problems we run into, as well. First of all, I made the mistake of talking, which just seems to get me into trouble. And I made the mistake of trying to defend myself when I get upset by your accusations, which you always take as bitter and hostile e-mails though I clearly stated, 'I am not mad, just very sad' and 'I am not lashing out' . And you know what....I am offended that you say I have issues...oh wait...I almost forgot to quote you: "You have some seriouse fucking issues you need to work out." Please, Tell me those issues so that I can start working them out. Because I feel that you will have negativity towards me until I work out these issues. This is the negativity that I told Heather I was afraid would keep us from beeing friends. So I am trying, honestly, here and now to be your friend. Tell me what problems I have that stand in the way of our friendship and I'll try to fix them for you because you were once my best friend and I would like to get rid of this hostility once and for all.