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I just need to vent for a minute...he is looking really bad today. He started Chemo Wednesday and it has definatly taken its toll. He hasnt wanted to eat today which really scares me. I think its finally gettting really close to the end but I dont want to let go. I wish I dont have to see him like this and I wish there was more time. and on top of it all Josh might get laid off again. and we havent been doing the best lately. i feel like my whole life is just falling apart. i just want to be happy i want everything to be like it was.