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I'm feeling blah today. I drive myself crazy I wish I was normal. There are days that I just want to do so much and so many people I want to hang out with and just never do it. Many days go by where I have no motivation to do anything. Ugh...I was excited to go to the Matt Giraud concert next Saturday had great seats!!!! But it was just cancelled :( Woke up with a migraine this morning lovely. Josh is at a lan party...just want to cuddle right now. I need to exercise. I need to clean. I need to be productive. When I actually want to do those things I can't because I have the kids around but when I have free time I just don't want to do anything. I just feel so blank sometimes. Maybe I need a different medication...idk. Just waiting to get somewhere in school so I can get on with my life. Wish it wasn't so hard to get into a program. Waiting to figure out what's going on with my little girl I don't want her to go on in life having so much trouble. My mom got a puppy she's adorable! I got 2 pups they are cute Jersey is so sweet and Emma is crazy. Josh is going to school and i am so proud of him. but i miss him cuz hes either at work at school or doing homework. My brother got a job working with josh he starts next week. He graduates next month! wow where has time gone? I still love all my friends even though they may not think so I have issues myself it has nothing to do with them. I wish I could explain it but I don;t know how. Sometimes I am lonely or sad and have no reason to be. I have a few friends who have been going through some unimaginable things lately I can;t even imagine their pain. I hope they come out ok. I think I will finish ranting now.