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today has been slightly boring but i think i like it right now. ive been sitting at home drinking beers and listening to music all day. maybe i should eat something?
dylans coming down to hang out. i hope the night doesnt turn out as a bust i guess it could go anyway really.
chris mv imed me last night and said he was sorry for everything he did that was shitty when we were going out. it was really weird. i didnt really know what to say. i mean its not like i really care either way, i still think its insane. but i did think it was really nice of him to at least realize the fact that he was a total dickhead. but i wouldnt have had it any other way cause he really changed how i am in relationships. well, i still date losers, but at least i realize it quicked then i did before. anywho he was saying he wants to get coffee with me sometime. but im kinda scared. whenever ive seen him on the street within the past 3 years i still loose my breath and get super scared. just because he was so fucking crazy and im afraid he might do something.
i dont know. i guess i would get coffee with him just because it would be weird and funny probably.
tiny whales all got into a fight tues night at practice. i guess im mostly at fault just because i get really frustrated and cant express myself well enough for any of those assholes to understand. luckily matty is usually on my side. and he hated it when i get pissed just because i think he understand me better then dan or ryan do. basicly its like this. ryan thinks everything has to be based around the keyboards (which um, no one cares about) and dan doesnt understand why i have such a difficult time figuring out what to play really. and ryan always thinks i should play some gay bass line or something. but i dont play shit like that. i play bass like a guitarist and he plays that gay bass shit on the keyboards. and thats what makes us cool and not gay and emo. i guess i just feel really under rated in that band, as far as the guys are concered. i mean, all dan does is play one chord and go "ding ding" through the whole song. i have to think of an awesome melodies and lyrics and sing. this is my first fucking band! that shit is really hard for me. and i always feel like they attack me being like "no that sucks dont do that! find something different to do now!" and it doesnt work that way for me. like, if what i play doesnt go with the keyboards why cant ryan change his fucking keyboards? no one can ever hear him anyways. so all of this is really just more rant then anything else. i just wish ryan wasnt such a fucking tyrant in the band.
i feel like he always has to make it clear like: im the boss, and i hate you cause your my ex. so everything you say sucks.
okay well i gotta go cause dylans supposed to call me.
dylans coming down to hang out. i hope the night doesnt turn out as a bust i guess it could go anyway really.
chris mv imed me last night and said he was sorry for everything he did that was shitty when we were going out. it was really weird. i didnt really know what to say. i mean its not like i really care either way, i still think its insane. but i did think it was really nice of him to at least realize the fact that he was a total dickhead. but i wouldnt have had it any other way cause he really changed how i am in relationships. well, i still date losers, but at least i realize it quicked then i did before. anywho he was saying he wants to get coffee with me sometime. but im kinda scared. whenever ive seen him on the street within the past 3 years i still loose my breath and get super scared. just because he was so fucking crazy and im afraid he might do something.
i dont know. i guess i would get coffee with him just because it would be weird and funny probably.
tiny whales all got into a fight tues night at practice. i guess im mostly at fault just because i get really frustrated and cant express myself well enough for any of those assholes to understand. luckily matty is usually on my side. and he hated it when i get pissed just because i think he understand me better then dan or ryan do. basicly its like this. ryan thinks everything has to be based around the keyboards (which um, no one cares about) and dan doesnt understand why i have such a difficult time figuring out what to play really. and ryan always thinks i should play some gay bass line or something. but i dont play shit like that. i play bass like a guitarist and he plays that gay bass shit on the keyboards. and thats what makes us cool and not gay and emo. i guess i just feel really under rated in that band, as far as the guys are concered. i mean, all dan does is play one chord and go "ding ding" through the whole song. i have to think of an awesome melodies and lyrics and sing. this is my first fucking band! that shit is really hard for me. and i always feel like they attack me being like "no that sucks dont do that! find something different to do now!" and it doesnt work that way for me. like, if what i play doesnt go with the keyboards why cant ryan change his fucking keyboards? no one can ever hear him anyways. so all of this is really just more rant then anything else. i just wish ryan wasnt such a fucking tyrant in the band.
i feel like he always has to make it clear like: im the boss, and i hate you cause your my ex. so everything you say sucks.
okay well i gotta go cause dylans supposed to call me.