acceptance
Tonight, I accepted that I cannot control what people say or how they think. People have, and will continue to judge me and my actions, even if they don't know where I'm coming from. There will be people who will think I am wrong sometimes. Or ignorant. Or weak. It doesn't mean I no longer care what they think-- I simply accept it.
Tonight, I accepted the past. There are a million why's I've asked and no answer was even half satisfactory; so many what-if's, I've lost count. And I accept that. I accept all the mistakes others and I have made, because as I sit here alone in my living room, I feel so aware of my own presence, and I feel good. Those mistakes I once wished I could undo have brought me here, laptop lying on my bare, Indian-crossed legs. My stomach is hungry for breakfast and my face feels dirty, but I am good. I accept this.
Tonight, I accepted every single complication in my life. Every emotion I wish I didn't have to feel, I accept it. I accept the moments I let myself slip, and even more difficult, I accept strength. I accept that I was strong tonight, and I accept that I will be tomorrow. I accept willpower.
Tonight, I simply... accepted.
Tonight, I accepted the past. There are a million why's I've asked and no answer was even half satisfactory; so many what-if's, I've lost count. And I accept that. I accept all the mistakes others and I have made, because as I sit here alone in my living room, I feel so aware of my own presence, and I feel good. Those mistakes I once wished I could undo have brought me here, laptop lying on my bare, Indian-crossed legs. My stomach is hungry for breakfast and my face feels dirty, but I am good. I accept this.
Tonight, I accepted every single complication in my life. Every emotion I wish I didn't have to feel, I accept it. I accept the moments I let myself slip, and even more difficult, I accept strength. I accept that I was strong tonight, and I accept that I will be tomorrow. I accept willpower.
Tonight, I simply... accepted.