Silenced
I am always in a rush to get things done. I feel like I just need to take a day and run away. I just want to let go of all these thoughts and release myself. I just don't really know how.
I made a decision a bit ago to be more socialable. I decided to just accept a social life and try to balance it on top of everything else. It's hard and feels forced at times for me, because I'm just so overwhelmed.
Some days I just want to go the entire day with out talking. I want to take a walk and not worry about listening to those songs for orchestra and working on that technique for my instrument. I want to take a nap with out worrying that I'll be up all night and tired the next day. I want to drink coffee because of the taste and not the caffeine. Do my homework in peace. And honestly there are days when I could drop my phone in a big bucket of water and just laugh as I watch it drown. haha That sounds so evil but it would be just one more lack of contact from the outside world.
I'm just always tired and I like to be at home. I like to lay on my bed for an hour and just lay there, because it's calming. I'm tired of being on top of things, or more or less trying to be on top of things.
I made a decision a bit ago to be more socialable. I decided to just accept a social life and try to balance it on top of everything else. It's hard and feels forced at times for me, because I'm just so overwhelmed.
Some days I just want to go the entire day with out talking. I want to take a walk and not worry about listening to those songs for orchestra and working on that technique for my instrument. I want to take a nap with out worrying that I'll be up all night and tired the next day. I want to drink coffee because of the taste and not the caffeine. Do my homework in peace. And honestly there are days when I could drop my phone in a big bucket of water and just laugh as I watch it drown. haha That sounds so evil but it would be just one more lack of contact from the outside world.
I'm just always tired and I like to be at home. I like to lay on my bed for an hour and just lay there, because it's calming. I'm tired of being on top of things, or more or less trying to be on top of things.