Denver Ragdoll =]
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Ready, set, GO! (er... or not)
Sometimes it seems like I'm suffocating, being taken over and twisted into something the world wants. There are so many expectations to become something BIG. Issue #1 I'm a small person and I love the BAM impact of TiNy Meets Big, but not today... anyway... that makes no sense! ... Next!
So yeah, every one is running this race, but not just a race.. The Race! An Ultimate 4 year race! and we're all in such a hurry to go Vroom Vroom, Fast Fast. Issue #2 I like speeding, but not when it comes to this Death Race... I choose life thank you. My own pace is good =] Thank you.
And it's not that I'm intimidated by it, or you or they.. It's just the fact that I don't like suffocating, I like to take it easy and Breathe. Recently I've learned how to, yay! Yes, improvement. ;]
So no more twisting, I'm not flexible.. Issue #3 I don't bend that way. That's why I'm considering yoga =P (Aka considering tehehe)
And pleeasssee, stop trying to run over this ragdoll. Ring your bell and I'll move out of the way. All I ask is that you warn me. I will move. I'm not into the competative scene any more.. at least not for now.
Just don't worry too much. I will get there and there will be a Bang. =] Really! It will be fun, I promise. =P
Posted by cassie at 6:30 PM 0 comments
Monday, August 24, 2009
Wow... the after effects of drugs
I never take drugs when I'm sick, but this time through was intense. I swallowed IBuProfen like cannndy and Benadryl was my goodnight kiss. I even had Sudafed, which really didn't have an effect on my symptoms, but I felt looooppppy! afterwards, that's for sure.
Let's see, I had medicine Thursday, Friday and Saturday... and It's Monday and I still feel like I'm walking in the clouds. Sunday too! Oh, Sunday was the worst when it came down to loopy. I left the house and all day I was just slightly crazier than the usual. Haha I kept repeating myself, I would feel slightly dizzy at times, tired and then hyper, but then bam!, dizzy again. Haha Yeaaaah.
I hope tomorrow I'm a little bit back to yay standards... but to be honest it's slightly entertaining for me hahaha. Nothing serious just funny. I'm a lightweight when it comes to drugs.
Posted by cassie at 5:35 PM 2 comments
Sunday, August 23, 2009
A New Banner for DT
=]
I took this picture yesterday. I had a fever, but being in bed for three days straight was just too much so I got up, put make up on and had a mini photo shoot hahaha ... yeah I'm a nerd... =P
But I made this Banner for my Band =P Yes, I'm just drowning in nerd right now. I know!
Posted by cassie at 7:23 AM 2 comments
Saturday, August 22, 2009
feverish delusions
The comments made by others are a blurrrr that just keep coming; passing by. Listening to the distant bass of a long forgotten song; sweet, so continuous, distant-t-t-t. Echoes and memories that just never forget those feelings. I can hear you, I see you and I believe in you, but right now I'm not all here for you. I'm selfish; too focused on all the nothing. I lay back into the lies, the delusions of others and get swept away in the ecstasy of a lost world. The torment of decisions and confusion. All of it mannn... madddeee. I keep spinning around; faces, voices. I'm hoping for something concrete, but the colors are swept around me in a dizzy frenzy. Fading into the darkness; nothing. Everything that doesn't matter disappears and there we stand alone; in solitude. In the end, it is only us. In the end it is only you and me, standing in the dark plains commenting, believing that all that doesn't matter, will matter soon. Praying that one day the delusions will reveal something more, but they never do. Merely delusions, forgotten and alone.
Posted by cassie at 7:52 AM 0 comments
Friday, August 21, 2009
>.< icky icky
Oh my gosh, this cold has come over me way too fast. I feel like some one rolled me in the dirt, tied me to a tree and has stuck pollen up my nose X.x Haha yes, I'm trying to make light of this crummy situation.
I just hope today was the worst day and I can have a wonderful weekend. I get to volunteer in the church band (if I'm not congested and don't have a sore throat) and work some hours at the church garage sale... I just want to feel better by then. Keep me in your prayers! =]
Posted by cassie at 6:31 PM 0 comments
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I'm surfing the internet
I love looking at different photographers and stuff...
I like this pic of Sandra Bullock
=]
O.o ... I'm not a stalker >.>
Posted by cassie at 8:08 PM 0 comments
I'm obsessed with New Moon
The first movie was cheeeeesy... but I'm hoping hoping the second movie is better! It's so awwwwwww... <3
New Moon -sighs-
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Freesssh
Ay ya Ay ya! (random)
It's crazy how people are all at the same level mentally. We just age physically. Obviously people have their gifts; some are wise, book smart, kind, loving, patient and what not, but people all still have their immaturities no matter what age. It's just a matter of accepting others for their faults, because you have faults that need acceptance too.
I was talking to my abuela today and she was talking about decision making and how when she was younger she made so many bad choices, but she got through it. On the other hand she still wonders what could have been (something I thought only the young and foolish did). Even though she is still happy with where she is at it's still something she thinks about. It's just crazy.. I don't know if I'm even getting my point across.
Then I look at other people and no matter what age we are all concerned about bills and money and in the end it is all about us us us. Realizing this way of life makes me really despise it, because it is so entirely stressful! If I can avoid stressing over the drug intoxicated grunge, then wuh hoo! No more. I do not want money to be my lifestyle. I'm a passionate person and I want to have passion for something more than a disgustingly, germy, green piece paper. It's too materialistic.
I just don't want to follow the grain, because you never grow up if you live for the doe. You never really appreciate what you have because you're too busy trying to get more. I'm happy with out that stress thank you. I'm happy in my little corner with a violin and some random notes.
In the mean time, I don't dislike people for the way they live and idolise money, but it's definitely not something I respect either.
(wow, I think this was one big random tangent of a rantish muttering)
Posted by cassie at 7:05 PM 0 comments
Monday, August 17, 2009
Tonight, tonight
Allright, so tonight I found out that I miss a lot of friends from highschool. The fun and games, hanging out and being close.. but it is okay. We still get together; laugh, smile and have a good time. DDR is awesome and Dulcy and Rosa are awesome chefs in the kitchen. My tummy is content. =P
Oh.. and yes I moved blogs once more.. this one is connected to the right e-mail that Rosa and Dulcy know so there yah go!
My former blog was www.durhiluvyou.blogspot.com... I could delete it, but the posts are still meaningful to me. I hang onto the past a little much still, but it won't effect me the same as it used to, so I keep it around as a simple reminder. (Of what, I do not know)
(yawns)
Yep, it's time for Bedddd.
Ready, set, GO! (er... or not)
Sometimes it seems like I'm suffocating, being taken over and twisted into something the world wants. There are so many expectations to become something BIG. Issue #1 I'm a small person and I love the BAM impact of TiNy Meets Big, but not today... anyway... that makes no sense! ... Next!
So yeah, every one is running this race, but not just a race.. The Race! An Ultimate 4 year race! and we're all in such a hurry to go Vroom Vroom, Fast Fast. Issue #2 I like speeding, but not when it comes to this Death Race... I choose life thank you. My own pace is good =] Thank you.
And it's not that I'm intimidated by it, or you or they.. It's just the fact that I don't like suffocating, I like to take it easy and Breathe. Recently I've learned how to, yay! Yes, improvement. ;]
So no more twisting, I'm not flexible.. Issue #3 I don't bend that way. That's why I'm considering yoga =P (Aka considering tehehe)
And pleeasssee, stop trying to run over this ragdoll. Ring your bell and I'll move out of the way. All I ask is that you warn me. I will move. I'm not into the competative scene any more.. at least not for now.
Just don't worry too much. I will get there and there will be a Bang. =] Really! It will be fun, I promise. =P
Posted by cassie at 6:30 PM 0 comments
Monday, August 24, 2009
Wow... the after effects of drugs
I never take drugs when I'm sick, but this time through was intense. I swallowed IBuProfen like cannndy and Benadryl was my goodnight kiss. I even had Sudafed, which really didn't have an effect on my symptoms, but I felt looooppppy! afterwards, that's for sure.
Let's see, I had medicine Thursday, Friday and Saturday... and It's Monday and I still feel like I'm walking in the clouds. Sunday too! Oh, Sunday was the worst when it came down to loopy. I left the house and all day I was just slightly crazier than the usual. Haha I kept repeating myself, I would feel slightly dizzy at times, tired and then hyper, but then bam!, dizzy again. Haha Yeaaaah.
I hope tomorrow I'm a little bit back to yay standards... but to be honest it's slightly entertaining for me hahaha. Nothing serious just funny. I'm a lightweight when it comes to drugs.
Posted by cassie at 5:35 PM 2 comments
Sunday, August 23, 2009
A New Banner for DT
=]
I took this picture yesterday. I had a fever, but being in bed for three days straight was just too much so I got up, put make up on and had a mini photo shoot hahaha ... yeah I'm a nerd... =P
But I made this Banner for my Band =P Yes, I'm just drowning in nerd right now. I know!
Posted by cassie at 7:23 AM 2 comments
Saturday, August 22, 2009
feverish delusions
The comments made by others are a blurrrr that just keep coming; passing by. Listening to the distant bass of a long forgotten song; sweet, so continuous, distant-t-t-t. Echoes and memories that just never forget those feelings. I can hear you, I see you and I believe in you, but right now I'm not all here for you. I'm selfish; too focused on all the nothing. I lay back into the lies, the delusions of others and get swept away in the ecstasy of a lost world. The torment of decisions and confusion. All of it mannn... madddeee. I keep spinning around; faces, voices. I'm hoping for something concrete, but the colors are swept around me in a dizzy frenzy. Fading into the darkness; nothing. Everything that doesn't matter disappears and there we stand alone; in solitude. In the end, it is only us. In the end it is only you and me, standing in the dark plains commenting, believing that all that doesn't matter, will matter soon. Praying that one day the delusions will reveal something more, but they never do. Merely delusions, forgotten and alone.
Posted by cassie at 7:52 AM 0 comments
Friday, August 21, 2009
>.< icky icky
Oh my gosh, this cold has come over me way too fast. I feel like some one rolled me in the dirt, tied me to a tree and has stuck pollen up my nose X.x Haha yes, I'm trying to make light of this crummy situation.
I just hope today was the worst day and I can have a wonderful weekend. I get to volunteer in the church band (if I'm not congested and don't have a sore throat) and work some hours at the church garage sale... I just want to feel better by then. Keep me in your prayers! =]
Posted by cassie at 6:31 PM 0 comments
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I'm surfing the internet
I love looking at different photographers and stuff...
I like this pic of Sandra Bullock
=]
O.o ... I'm not a stalker >.>
Posted by cassie at 8:08 PM 0 comments
I'm obsessed with New Moon
The first movie was cheeeeesy... but I'm hoping hoping the second movie is better! It's so awwwwwww... <3
New Moon -sighs-
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Freesssh
Ay ya Ay ya! (random)
It's crazy how people are all at the same level mentally. We just age physically. Obviously people have their gifts; some are wise, book smart, kind, loving, patient and what not, but people all still have their immaturities no matter what age. It's just a matter of accepting others for their faults, because you have faults that need acceptance too.
I was talking to my abuela today and she was talking about decision making and how when she was younger she made so many bad choices, but she got through it. On the other hand she still wonders what could have been (something I thought only the young and foolish did). Even though she is still happy with where she is at it's still something she thinks about. It's just crazy.. I don't know if I'm even getting my point across.
Then I look at other people and no matter what age we are all concerned about bills and money and in the end it is all about us us us. Realizing this way of life makes me really despise it, because it is so entirely stressful! If I can avoid stressing over the drug intoxicated grunge, then wuh hoo! No more. I do not want money to be my lifestyle. I'm a passionate person and I want to have passion for something more than a disgustingly, germy, green piece paper. It's too materialistic.
I just don't want to follow the grain, because you never grow up if you live for the doe. You never really appreciate what you have because you're too busy trying to get more. I'm happy with out that stress thank you. I'm happy in my little corner with a violin and some random notes.
In the mean time, I don't dislike people for the way they live and idolise money, but it's definitely not something I respect either.
(wow, I think this was one big random tangent of a rantish muttering)
Posted by cassie at 7:05 PM 0 comments
Monday, August 17, 2009
Tonight, tonight
Allright, so tonight I found out that I miss a lot of friends from highschool. The fun and games, hanging out and being close.. but it is okay. We still get together; laugh, smile and have a good time. DDR is awesome and Dulcy and Rosa are awesome chefs in the kitchen. My tummy is content. =P
Oh.. and yes I moved blogs once more.. this one is connected to the right e-mail that Rosa and Dulcy know so there yah go!
My former blog was www.durhiluvyou.blogspot.com... I could delete it, but the posts are still meaningful to me. I hang onto the past a little much still, but it won't effect me the same as it used to, so I keep it around as a simple reminder. (Of what, I do not know)
(yawns)
Yep, it's time for Bedddd.