i need a remote start button on this bitch
don't you ever just hate human nature?
and get paranoid about life?
and the attitudes of those you will meet along the way?
I think I am starting to again.
It's not that I hate people exactly, I just hate the ideas that they perpetuate
which means I should hate myself because of my dishonesty and double standards
and actually, right now I kind of am close to hating myself.
not hate. just....disappointment
I just need to create my own penis showing game, that's all.
(it's an expression meaning basically to find something that will serve as a catalyst for the creation of change in your life)
I guess my problem is, that transitional phases in my life are traditionally met with resistence, unrealistic expectations, partial depression, and intense anxiety
and right now alot of things are uncertain
I dunno. I guess it's just growing up, or getting stuck in the middle of it, maybe.
I feel, seriously, like this is my first summer home from college
you know? how it's all akward and stuff?
but it's NOT
why am I having such a hard time?!
I probably know what it is, and it's putting everything out of allignment
you know? blowing holes in my entire vision of my life?
i just can't stop worrying.
worrying that i am being....tricked. left behind. stagnant.
it's going to be better starting today
I decided
I am making a committment to that
because I am going to make MYSELF better, you know?
and focus on MYSELF
and then life will just fall right into place
mainly, my mind is just too busy lately
it's running away with me and it has taken my logic hostage!
and get paranoid about life?
and the attitudes of those you will meet along the way?
I think I am starting to again.
It's not that I hate people exactly, I just hate the ideas that they perpetuate
which means I should hate myself because of my dishonesty and double standards
and actually, right now I kind of am close to hating myself.
not hate. just....disappointment
I just need to create my own penis showing game, that's all.
(it's an expression meaning basically to find something that will serve as a catalyst for the creation of change in your life)
I guess my problem is, that transitional phases in my life are traditionally met with resistence, unrealistic expectations, partial depression, and intense anxiety
and right now alot of things are uncertain
I dunno. I guess it's just growing up, or getting stuck in the middle of it, maybe.
I feel, seriously, like this is my first summer home from college
you know? how it's all akward and stuff?
but it's NOT
why am I having such a hard time?!
I probably know what it is, and it's putting everything out of allignment
you know? blowing holes in my entire vision of my life?
i just can't stop worrying.
worrying that i am being....tricked. left behind. stagnant.
it's going to be better starting today
I decided
I am making a committment to that
because I am going to make MYSELF better, you know?
and focus on MYSELF
and then life will just fall right into place
mainly, my mind is just too busy lately
it's running away with me and it has taken my logic hostage!