that's just it.

[honeybunni]

 I've been having lapses of feeling really bad about myself. And how I am as a person.
it doesn't help when my best friends keep saying things about me that make me a bad friend.
I just don't even care anymore, the only thing keeping me here is Molly and even that scares the shit out of me...
I don't want her to go yet. 
I'm sorry I'm selfish, I'm sorry I don't seem like I care, I'm sorry I can't hang out all the times that you need me, I'm sorry I can't handle everything, I'm sorry I'm not a good person, I'm sorry I can be quiet, I'm sorry I don't say the right things, I'm sorry I'm exhausted, I'm sorry I don't show how I really feel, I'm sorry I complain, I'm sorry I'm not smart, I'm sorry I'm not beautiful (I don't mean just in looks either), I'm sorry I'm not the person I want to be, and...
I'm sorry I can't be proud of myself.