can't sleep
Its now 11:59 pm est and i'm not asleep...this is a problem seeing as i have to get up at 6:30 am est, but what's a girl to do. I seem to be having alot of trouble with the sleeping lately...I can't get to sleep, but once I do I can't get up...well I can get up I just don't want to.
I went to a wedding Saturday night, and instead of being happy for the lovely couple....I was insanely jealous and almost resentful. I really don't know what my problem is lately, but I need to snap out of it. I've gone beyond the usually envy when I see couples together, to being angry. I really need to get a grip, because its not anybodies fault but my own that lancey is in Idaho right now and I need to stop feeling anger towards people I don't even know.
Is anybody ever wanted something so badly, but you don't even know how to go about getting it? That's what I feel like right now. I want so badly to be in Idaho, but that's a big thing to want...and I have no idea how to get started on making it become a reality. I do know that I'll have to do it all on my own, but as of right now I don't know what that's going to consist of. I just wish I could snap my figures and my fairy godmother would come down and take care of all the little details for me and wave her little wond and the next thing you know I'm in Idhao....but that's not going to happen..i'm not cinderella...and this is the real world not a disney cartoon. If only life where easy, but its not...oh well.
I went to a wedding Saturday night, and instead of being happy for the lovely couple....I was insanely jealous and almost resentful. I really don't know what my problem is lately, but I need to snap out of it. I've gone beyond the usually envy when I see couples together, to being angry. I really need to get a grip, because its not anybodies fault but my own that lancey is in Idaho right now and I need to stop feeling anger towards people I don't even know.
Is anybody ever wanted something so badly, but you don't even know how to go about getting it? That's what I feel like right now. I want so badly to be in Idaho, but that's a big thing to want...and I have no idea how to get started on making it become a reality. I do know that I'll have to do it all on my own, but as of right now I don't know what that's going to consist of. I just wish I could snap my figures and my fairy godmother would come down and take care of all the little details for me and wave her little wond and the next thing you know I'm in Idhao....but that's not going to happen..i'm not cinderella...and this is the real world not a disney cartoon. If only life where easy, but its not...oh well.