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I've been very antisocial. It's very annoying when I really do NOT want to be around others, online or in RL. Insomnia keeps hitting, I'm moody a lot, anxious... the fuck, is it menopause at this point? Why not. Go for the gold, I guess... sorry to anyone who feels ignored. I'm trying, but it's been hard.
I AM concentrating on Gavs a lot lately, though. He's going to be nine in a mere two weeks, and I've been watching old vids, looking at baby pics... sigh. He was in the chorus for the third-grade play yesterday, 'Vacation to Mars'. A perfect, awesomesauce play based on the solar system. We got the script weeks ago to giggle over, and we ALMOST panicked when they listed the planets in a son with the lyrics, 'And Pluto too!' Me and Pan cocked eyebrows, but it went on to say "WAIT!"... and explain its demotion. LOL. So he didn't sing, spending most of the show with his fingers in his ears, lol... and at one point, he went to stand when he shouldn't have an the boy next to him said, "Sit down, Gavvy!" in a authoritative voice (I appreciated it so hard) and he did. Other than that, he did SO good listening and sitting with his friends. I was very proud of my kiddo. After the play, we hung out with his 1-on-1 in the lunchroom where they'd set up snack tables. VERY insightful conversations, mostly having to do with the possibility of his going to another school next year (me and Mrs. O are all NUUU about it). I got the whole play on video, on Pan's parents' DVD recorder. Might try to upload it. About a half hour, so I'll hafta make it in parts.
I'd been excited that Gavs birthday fell on a Saturday, and planned his party for it. Posted it as an 'event' on facebook as all my fam and friends are there, but only two people said yes. So I had to cancel. I'm pretty depressed about that. Canceling my kid's party, right on his birthday, due to 'lack of interest'. Yea, that's got me down, more than I've admitted to people.
Thinking about taking a nice break from LJ for a while--writing altogether. I just don't care enough right now. My first kink-prompt was posted yesterday and I planned on doing more, but the 'meh' coursing through me right now is all... meh.
I AM concentrating on Gavs a lot lately, though. He's going to be nine in a mere two weeks, and I've been watching old vids, looking at baby pics... sigh. He was in the chorus for the third-grade play yesterday, 'Vacation to Mars'. A perfect, awesomesauce play based on the solar system. We got the script weeks ago to giggle over, and we ALMOST panicked when they listed the planets in a son with the lyrics, 'And Pluto too!' Me and Pan cocked eyebrows, but it went on to say "WAIT!"... and explain its demotion. LOL. So he didn't sing, spending most of the show with his fingers in his ears, lol... and at one point, he went to stand when he shouldn't have an the boy next to him said, "Sit down, Gavvy!" in a authoritative voice (I appreciated it so hard) and he did. Other than that, he did SO good listening and sitting with his friends. I was very proud of my kiddo. After the play, we hung out with his 1-on-1 in the lunchroom where they'd set up snack tables. VERY insightful conversations, mostly having to do with the possibility of his going to another school next year (me and Mrs. O are all NUUU about it). I got the whole play on video, on Pan's parents' DVD recorder. Might try to upload it. About a half hour, so I'll hafta make it in parts.
I'd been excited that Gavs birthday fell on a Saturday, and planned his party for it. Posted it as an 'event' on facebook as all my fam and friends are there, but only two people said yes. So I had to cancel. I'm pretty depressed about that. Canceling my kid's party, right on his birthday, due to 'lack of interest'. Yea, that's got me down, more than I've admitted to people.
Thinking about taking a nice break from LJ for a while--writing altogether. I just don't care enough right now. My first kink-prompt was posted yesterday and I planned on doing more, but the 'meh' coursing through me right now is all... meh.