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why is today such a hard day? i'm crazy busy at work. and then all this.
conflicting feelings. why do i act the way i do?
why do i say the things i do?
i dont think i can any of them back.
maybe i should just walk away.
i dont know.
i really dont.
last week and earlier this week things were feeling great. they really were. i was feeling like man i'm starting to turn back to God in so many ways. but then today. today is the evidence that i'm not anywhere. i'm stuck in quicksand and all i keep doing is sinking deeper.
conflicting thoughts running through my head.
i dont know.
i dont know if i want to do anything.
i have to pee.
(it feels like i've had to pee alot lately. have i been drinking more water? hmm i dont think so)
conflicting feelings. why do i act the way i do?
why do i say the things i do?
i dont think i can any of them back.
maybe i should just walk away.
i dont know.
i really dont.
last week and earlier this week things were feeling great. they really were. i was feeling like man i'm starting to turn back to God in so many ways. but then today. today is the evidence that i'm not anywhere. i'm stuck in quicksand and all i keep doing is sinking deeper.
conflicting thoughts running through my head.
i dont know.
i dont know if i want to do anything.
i have to pee.
(it feels like i've had to pee alot lately. have i been drinking more water? hmm i dont think so)