im numb

[honey_gee_xoxo]

and im here thinking of you
and hating the fact that you still have the power to make me feel
and hating the fact that well everyone(just about) has someone
im alone
and i hate that you especially have someone
i started and finished a book within 4 hours
and the whole time it made me think of you
and i started to look for a cd i wanted to hear and i cant find it and i started to cry
i felt stupid because i thought i was crying because i couldnt find the cd
but no thats not it (well maybe a little...its a really great cd)
but its because of you that im crying
and its because of you that i cant sleep
and its because of you that i want to find someone else
and prove that i too can be happy (pretend?)
i just want for things to change now
thats all i really need
and maybe a little you