this isnt just goodbye this is I CANT STAND YOU

[honey_18]

yea so things have been going okay i guess. i havent really done much since everyone has been gone. worked on wednesday at Forever21 and Thursday i started classes yay i love my psych class already its gonna be a good one im really exctied. then after that went to the mall worked at hollister and went to the hospital. all in all i really havent been doing much at all. just sitting in my room and working which is why im really happy that school started back up i needed to get back into the swing of things. the only thing that really sucks is that even tho i seem to be happy im not at all i havent been really happy in a long time. well i can remember the last time i was really really happy honest to God very extremely happy but i dont talk about those days anymore. they just hurt now. i thought looking back on them would make me happy but really they dont. they just make me wish that things were back to normal. and i dont think that they ever will be. i havent talked to loRin in ages and i dont miss it at all. sad but happy about it all. more happy than anything.

im supposed to be heading to purdue in 28 days but i dont see that happening. that just makes me hit an ultimate low. but hey maybe ill go to Western to see mike or maybe ill go to central to see tree horse and collin or maybe ill just go to state to see mel and jenny. idk i really dont care where i go if i dont go to purdue as long as im with friends and as long as i can drink myself into a coma and never wake up sweet..

28 till either a road trip to PURDUE western state or central..we will see all time will tell.