youve shown me so much that i love
so Saturday turned out to be the best and worst day of my life. i really thought that after things were said and done that there would never be a "happy ending" in my life but yet again the tables turned and it became the best night of my life. loRin picked me up and we went to her house and hung out there for a little bit mind you when loRIn picked me up i was crying and in the worst mood ever. got to loRins and saw Ling omg she looked so pretty i was so jealous then kushy and kyky stopped over to get lingo and we all headed down to kelseys house omg they all looked so bee-YOU-tee-ful all dressed up in their homecoming stuff awww i was excited to see them and it really made me think about homecoming and prom and the chances i had but didnt take. anyways they all took pictures and we talked to kelsos brother who was home from state for the weekend and then me and loRin went to her house and we had it all to ourselves. got online and had the worst conversation of my life with the one person that i really care about i was crying when all the little kiddies got back from dinner so they could get their alcohol i was a mess. then when they left again me and loRin went to get a pizza and i talked to jack and cried on the phone for what seemed like hours and when i got off the phone with him i just sat there and cried. when we got back to loRins i attempted to eat pizza but i had absolutely no appatite to eat anything blah and around 840 me and loRin decided to take a nap and start boozin. slept till 10 and then woke up and lined up the shot glasses and had a lil power hour DRINK DRINK DRINK then jeremy came over and then danny along with kosch and we played circle of death. yummy made a mixed drink with like half of the 5th lmao sick but whatever. then simmy called jeremy and he was with jack and pat and they wanted to come over but jeremy didnt think that would be a good idea...but in the end jack ended up calling me and he said he wanted to come over..i mean it wasnt really a big deal id cried all day over him why not let him come over too lol so they ended up coming over and we were all outside sittin on the back pourch drinking when jack walked into the back yard it was really awkard to see him i didnt even kno what to say because i was so upset so i just kinda stood there i didnt kno what to say at all and it really bothered me. o well and then when every1 pretty much went inside he told me the one thing that i was hoping he would tell me if he were to come over. i could help but grab him and kiss him. i thought i had lost him that day i really did. he made me so happy. then we drank drank drank lol and played some games i was wasted not gonna lie...me and jack were able to spend some time together so that made me really happy he left around 2ish and me and loRin went in this boy brads hot tub yea i passed out in it cause your not supposed to drink and go in a hot tub lol and that was when i decided that i had had enough and wanted to go home lol so we left and tried to talk to werner on the phone for lolo and then she took me home.
Woke up sunday and went to church. and did some homework it was jacks birthday HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY JACK later that night after he had lunch with his sister and spent time with he family he said i could come over me and loRin went for a drive then i went over to see him and wish him a happy birthday he got ready and we went back to my house so he could open his present and yay he really liked them which made me really happy. then we went to the movies to see the 40 year old virgin. it was funny and i really liked going to the movies with him it was fun he was in such a goofy mood and i loved it then we went back to his house after the movie around 12 and watched comedy stuff ended up passing out over there and didnt wake up till 5 oops..October 9th was a really special day for me. one year ago that date...i loved waking up in his arms at 5 in the morning.
Monday since i got home so late i went back to bed till 630 and then went to my math class till 10 and then went home watched some tv and went to my other class at 12 got a B+ on my paper but i wanted an A so i wasnt really happy and then after that i came home took a shower and went to jacks house. we layed in his bed and took a lil nap and just layed there in his arms i felt so safe there and then we went downstairs and watched some more comedy and then his mom said she would take him to the mall for his birthday so he went and showered and put on the outfit that i got him and Drift ahh it smelt so good on him i loved it then we went to the mall he got a belt these jeans that i really like 2 pairs of shoes and i really liked the button up tha the got he looked soo good in it ahh then we went and got pizza i went home and studied for my exam till 10 and then i went over there and watched football and layed with him on the couch and we talked. i hate goodbyes then we fell asleep again and woke up at quarter to 1 and then i had to say my goodbye..i was sad went home and went to sleep dreaming of him
Today got up and went to class where i found out that my exam got cancelled so that kinda sucked came home and my baby was gone i miss him his plane leaves in an hour that makes me sad i cant wait for him to call me later. going out to get something to eat with billy around 4ish and then who knows. im very tired tho and very lonely i miss him
4 days till my 19th birthday and Sweetest Day..lets see my birthday last year sucked along with sweetest day so im sure to expect the same thing this year also. i really do hate my birthday
but i am going to canada for my 19th birthday so that should be sweet call me and let me kno if you wanna go with my lover markus and some other people
and coney with the girls at 12 on my birthday yay
8 days till WLR with my biAtch
24 days till PURDUE for the MSU game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!get!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!baby!!!!!!!
Woke up sunday and went to church. and did some homework it was jacks birthday HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY JACK later that night after he had lunch with his sister and spent time with he family he said i could come over me and loRin went for a drive then i went over to see him and wish him a happy birthday he got ready and we went back to my house so he could open his present and yay he really liked them which made me really happy. then we went to the movies to see the 40 year old virgin. it was funny and i really liked going to the movies with him it was fun he was in such a goofy mood and i loved it then we went back to his house after the movie around 12 and watched comedy stuff ended up passing out over there and didnt wake up till 5 oops..October 9th was a really special day for me. one year ago that date...i loved waking up in his arms at 5 in the morning.
Monday since i got home so late i went back to bed till 630 and then went to my math class till 10 and then went home watched some tv and went to my other class at 12 got a B+ on my paper but i wanted an A so i wasnt really happy and then after that i came home took a shower and went to jacks house. we layed in his bed and took a lil nap and just layed there in his arms i felt so safe there and then we went downstairs and watched some more comedy and then his mom said she would take him to the mall for his birthday so he went and showered and put on the outfit that i got him and Drift ahh it smelt so good on him i loved it then we went to the mall he got a belt these jeans that i really like 2 pairs of shoes and i really liked the button up tha the got he looked soo good in it ahh then we went and got pizza i went home and studied for my exam till 10 and then i went over there and watched football and layed with him on the couch and we talked. i hate goodbyes then we fell asleep again and woke up at quarter to 1 and then i had to say my goodbye..i was sad went home and went to sleep dreaming of him
Today got up and went to class where i found out that my exam got cancelled so that kinda sucked came home and my baby was gone i miss him his plane leaves in an hour that makes me sad i cant wait for him to call me later. going out to get something to eat with billy around 4ish and then who knows. im very tired tho and very lonely i miss him
4 days till my 19th birthday and Sweetest Day..lets see my birthday last year sucked along with sweetest day so im sure to expect the same thing this year also. i really do hate my birthday
but i am going to canada for my 19th birthday so that should be sweet call me and let me kno if you wanna go with my lover markus and some other people
and coney with the girls at 12 on my birthday yay
8 days till WLR with my biAtch
24 days till PURDUE for the MSU game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!get!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!baby!!!!!!!