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Why do I feel inadequate. Should I blame my insecurities on the perfect figures of Hollywood, or on the so called "hotties" in magazines? If I don't have that small of nose, and that tan of skin, and those shape of eyebrows, and that style of makeup, and those blonde highlights, who would want me, they would only get bored, and look elsewhere. Maybe if I got fake nails, a nose job maybe, if my lips were a little plumper, or my thighs not soooo, I don't know, anything but my thighs. Maybe if I got my hair cut that way, maybe if I wore all that coverup to hide my belmishes, maybe if I got noticed by more guys and had more compliments, maybe that would make me feel better. Hey, people say it's a persons personality which makes a person worthwhile, but, when you first meet someone, what do you look at? definatly not their brain capacity, you look at how they look. How attractive they are, find their faults in their skin...
Ok, so your doing fine, but then awhile into your relationship, you start noticing other girls, how they dress, how skimpy there clothes are, their makeup, their figures, face shape, and then you wonder, if he notices this too....
And ofcourse he does, guys are sexual beings....And relizing that, does not make you feel any less insecure. It just makes you want to try harder, to obtain that "perfection" so maybe he will be satisfied and never have to look at another girl. When the reality is, that there will always, always be some one who is more attractive then you. That is when you wonder, should I try harder and torture myself emotionally, or break up with him, so I won't have to think about it.....Break up over insecurities. WHy can't I be happy with myself? WHY?
I wish I could shoot all the fake celebeties and all those short skirted sluts running around. Maybe, if they were extinct, maybe, JUST maybe, I would feel better....
Ok, so your doing fine, but then awhile into your relationship, you start noticing other girls, how they dress, how skimpy there clothes are, their makeup, their figures, face shape, and then you wonder, if he notices this too....
And ofcourse he does, guys are sexual beings....And relizing that, does not make you feel any less insecure. It just makes you want to try harder, to obtain that "perfection" so maybe he will be satisfied and never have to look at another girl. When the reality is, that there will always, always be some one who is more attractive then you. That is when you wonder, should I try harder and torture myself emotionally, or break up with him, so I won't have to think about it.....Break up over insecurities. WHy can't I be happy with myself? WHY?
I wish I could shoot all the fake celebeties and all those short skirted sluts running around. Maybe, if they were extinct, maybe, JUST maybe, I would feel better....