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i was fine. i talked to him on the phone the other day and i wanted to laugh cause i kept on thinking about how he needs and deserves to be taken away..its my fault hes leaving. i didnt stop him from doing what he did the first time to get caught. after that he just kept tripping and falling, pushing the limits, walking on the edge. he was born that way. i have known him years and he could never keep out of trouble. he was the boy all of our parents grounded us from, for life. but we didnt care. i know i didnt. he was/is a best friend. he always hurt me. but i just keep on loving him. he is one of my brothers. the oldest, bully, brother. but if anyone messed with me he'd fight for me..until he won. he would get me in the biggest trouble, and after all we could do is laugh. i lost boyfriends over him. but in the end i was glad cause if it wasnt for him i would be stuck in the wrong places. he would come see me no materr what the weather was like. we would go walking around the town.. messing around. getting ice cream..eat it as we walk to the lake.. we would walk on the dock and matt would throw us in. we would chase him in too. we would swim around in our clothes. get out and walk back up to commerce. mess around on the swings..sit in the parking lot and talk about people and the past. we would all go up to the movies and walk around the building. once that got out of season we would go to stephanies, her house was always inviting us. we would play hide and seek in her basement. we wouldeat posicles. matt would find me in the closet and we would kiss until everyone got sick of hiding. i would go to toris. take a shower and my stomach would be jumping. i would put on a tanktop, glittery shorts, throw my hair in a pony. he would come rolling up toris big driveway on his bike.
we would stand on the porch, then walk to dublin, st.pats..any neighborhood we found. we would get lost and circle the whole thing 2 times. by time we made it near toris house her sister would be out looking for us. we would be sweaty from the sun and come in and drink. we would go down stairs and watch movies, just cool off. the sun would go down and he would head home. we would stay up to talk to him online. at stephs fireworks were going off...we watched them as the sun went down. then..everything began to change..he would get bored with me..hop from friend to friend. we all would get in fights. we eventually stopped being friends at different points. once the next summer hit we missed summer 02 more then ever. we tried so hard to bring it back. we were older, matured a lot. hung out and did riskier things. matt was into drinking and drugs. got a lot of people into it with him. things couldnt be the same. nothing was as innocent. we still had fun tho. being drunk at 3 in the morning laughing our asses off. running from the cops... going back in the woods to drink. it was the new 'fun'. i knew it wasnt right..cause i watched matts life go downhill. we would fight. but we still stuck together. he got to come to northern. the 2nd day he came we made up. ..a few days later i moved. i was hugging everyone goodbye..and matt came for the last 5 minutes to say bye. i went to hug someone..looked up, ran into matts arms. his arms were bigger, stronger, older. i cried and cried..harder then i did that day. he kept saying 'dont cry nat, dont cry baby', it made it worse. i missed my bus. forgot about me leaving. walked around the school with him. my mom showed up to pick me up. he walked me to my car and shook my moms hand goodbye. i hugged him..my eyes watered but i didnt want to think about it and look back.
now hes gone, too.
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (4:56:21 PM): hey babe
Omg itS taLie (4:56:26 PM): matt dont go
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (4:56:37 PM): i have no choiuce
Omg itS taLie (4:56:46 PM): im never guna talk to you again
Omg itS taLie (4:56:58 PM): ill never see you again
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (4:57:03 PM): u never know
Omg itS taLie (4:57:04 PM): this is it
Omg itS taLie (4:57:27 PM): you said once i move you'll lose interest causeu cant keep up with me
Omg itS taLie (4:57:36 PM): and on top of that we have to go a year not talking
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (4:57:46 PM): it will be ok
Omg itS taLie (4:57:52 PM): noo dont go
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (4:57:56 PM): whats your adress i will tryto write but i dont know if they will send out of state
Omg itS taLie (4:57:57 PM): :'(
Omg itS taLie (4:58:05 PM): im crying dont go matt
Omg itS taLie (4:58:32 PM): 1103 silvershire wal knightdale NC 27545
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (4:58:38 PM): it will; be ok
Omg itS taLie (4:58:45 PM): no it wont
Omg itS taLie (4:59:09 PM): it just hit me wen you imed me and i got a rush of pain in my head and stomch
Omg itS taLie (4:59:13 PM): i can barely breath
Omg itS taLie (4:59:33 PM): ur leaving me again
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (4:59:57 PM): calm downn
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (5:00:01 PM): i love you natalie
Omg itS taLie (5:00:23 PM): i cant calm down i dont want you to go again
Omg itS taLie (5:00:25 PM): i love you
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (5:00:30 PM): it will be fine
Omg itS taLie (5:00:36 PM): no
Omg itS taLie (5:01:06 PM): wen r u leaving
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (5:01:52 PM): tommarow my last day
Omg itS taLie (5:02:26 PM): wat does tara have to say?
rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (5:03:35 PM): she crys everytime i see her
Omg itS taLie (5:04:21 PM): i would too
Auto response from rand0MwHiTeB0y69 (5:04:21 PM): Hanging out with Tara.....
Write your adress if you want me to write you when I go back to the village. 1 more day left.
I love you tara
Brodie
Omg itS taLie (5:12:48 PM): call me tonight wen u get time