Things are rarely as they seem, and feelings are always the most complicated.
Maybe it's a special bond that you share... I'm sure you're a lovely woman, but for sure you could be absolutely stunning and brilliant when you're at your very best.
Whatever it is that may weigh on you, you shouldn't have to feel like it's all on you.
We're all human, no one could know everything right when it happens.
I think I could understand that... though, I've made the mistake in thinking if I avoid those bonds then it won't hurt so much.
You won't get too far just blaming yourself, we all know better in a way but we still go and do it... Even if you don't want someone for fear of causing them more distress, at least try to find someone that will just be there. I've found that at least that much keeps me a little stronger to try and push on.
It was never a fear of pain for me, but more.. a fear of hurting those I care for the most. And that's exactly what I've done, and continue to do.
I only wish that was possible, but this.. is something far more complicated. It's not them who can't be around, it's me. If I were to step back now, it would undo all I've done, and ruin other things in the same way that I've ruined this.
Such a terrible mess. But it's the difficult things that make us realize just what we have, or have had. Pain is what makes us grateful for what happiness we can find, in the moments that we do.
You seem like an honestly good and strong person, worried about hurting others through the decisions you've made... You say you've hurt them, but if they continue to watch over you, then the only way you could really hurt them is not feeling like they're strong enough to be there for you.
At least that's as much as I've learned, I'm still trying to grasp how it works. I know I would do anything to protect those I care about... but t the same time... this stuff is really difficult overall.
Selfish as I can't help to think it sounds.. even if they're strong, I still can't help hating watching them suffer for my own foolish mistakes. It often begs the question of why they just don't walk away.
You're very flattering. And yes, that sounds like a lovely idea. It's been a while since I've had a proper conversation over tea. The only thing of the sort I've had in the past months has been coffee with Italians. It really isn't the same.
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But I guess figuring out this stuff is hard for other people too.
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.. It spoke to me unexpectedly.
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Maybe it's a special bond that you share... I'm sure you're a lovely woman, but for sure you could be absolutely stunning and brilliant when you're at your very best.
Whatever it is that may weigh on you, you shouldn't have to feel like it's all on you.
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I.. ah, thank you. And yes, it's a very special bond. Sometimes it's those that hurt the most though, I've noticed.
Mm. In this case, I really can't help but blame myself. In all of my experience, I really shouldn't make the mistakes I find myself making.
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I think I could understand that... though, I've made the mistake in thinking if I avoid those bonds then it won't hurt so much.
You won't get too far just blaming yourself, we all know better in a way but we still go and do it... Even if you don't want someone for fear of causing them more distress, at least try to find someone that will just be there. I've found that at least that much keeps me a little stronger to try and push on.
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It was never a fear of pain for me, but more.. a fear of hurting those I care for the most. And that's exactly what I've done, and continue to do.
I only wish that was possible, but this.. is something far more complicated. It's not them who can't be around, it's me. If I were to step back now, it would undo all I've done, and ruin other things in the same way that I've ruined this.
Such a terrible mess. But it's the difficult things that make us realize just what we have, or have had. Pain is what makes us grateful for what happiness we can find, in the moments that we do.
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At least that's as much as I've learned, I'm still trying to grasp how it works. I know I would do anything to protect those I care about... but t the same time... this stuff is really difficult overall.
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It is, it really is.
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I'm sure the people you know are the same way.
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Thank you.. ah, I'm sorry, I never asked for your name. How rude of me! D:
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Ah, no, it was rather rude of me not to introduce myself first. I'm Oz Vessalius, it's a pleasure to meet you.
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Not at all, it tends to happen when engaging conversation takes place. My name is Tohru Honda. It's pleasure to make your acquaintance, Mr. Vessalius.
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