'Cause The Wounds Never Heal

[hondatohru_desu]

I don't think I like this one bit.

Sometimes it seems like everything changes without warning. No, I don't think I like it at all.

It doesn't matter, anyway.

Shuuhei.. I think I'll be taking a few days off. I'm sorry for the lack of warning.

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[voiceinyourears]

*insert voice recording of him singing" You are my sunshine"*

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[hondatohru_desu]

.. You are such a dork.

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[voiceinyourears]

I just wanted you to know I love you. Everything will be okay, I'll make sure of that. So, don't worry about that stuff. I'm here now. You don't have to do it all alone.

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[hondatohru_desu]

Sap. I'm fine.

You're the one who's been '...' all day. Don't worry about me so much, I'm used to this kind of thing. ♥

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[voiceinyourears]

Perhaps, that is what's most upsetting to me. That you're used to this.

I apologize for my quietness today I've been thinking a lot on things, when things. That, was the first time I have ever struck anyone in anger. I'm not sure if I am more upset at myself because I lost my temper as I did, or the fact I know that I would do it again if I had to do it over again.

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[hondatohru_desu]

There's no need to be upset by things that have become necessary over time. It's simply the way things are, and will be. All we can do is accept that fact.

Anyone in their right mind would have done as you did. I suppose I'm just angry at the situation, because I knew you would blame yourself although you're not at fault. The point is that it shouldn't have happened at all. I'm angry at him, with good reason. There was no excuse for him to do as he did, or say what he said. He knows better, and has known better for quite some time.

The fact that he would choose to be such a child for positively no reason is inexcusable.

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[voiceinyourears]

I shouldn't have lost my temper, it made things worse. And engaging him we when he was in such a state, I should have known better. There was a solution that could have been reached that didn't end with you hurt. I wasn't thinking though, I acted. Regardless, I am sorry about that. And I am sorry that you had to see me like that.

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[hondatohru_desu]

Silence, it was unavoidable.

Besides, you didn't really engage him until after he had me by the throat. There was no solution. There was nothing that could have been done.

What you don't understand is that once he gets to a certain state, there is no changing his mind. I have years in experience knowing this. He does not listen. Period.

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[voiceinyourears]

He will not be returning to the house.

His other self has done far too much damage to you. And his words have hurt you as well. I will get him sorted out else where. I am aware of the situation now, I think it will go better that way.

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[hondatohru_desu]

That's fine.

Any words I have on this would be harsh. You're being a fool and going headlong into something you think you can easily resolve when I've been working on it for two and a half years. Blood may be thicker than water, but even so.

You're wrong, and this is insulting.

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[voiceinyourears]

I...am not sure how it's construed as insulting. I was trying to be considerate of you. I understand you went threw a rather stressful relationship with him, and you've been trying to help him a while. I just don't think you need to be stressed with this right now. I am not going to try it alone, that would be foolish. But his cycle needs broken, if not for himself for his wife and that innocent child that will be here soon. I am sorry if you felt I was being insulting in any way shape or form. It was not my intention.

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[hondatohru_desu]

The fact that you think the cycle can be broken so easily and so quickly is insulting, is what I'm saying. I have dealt with this for a long time; things are not so easily changed. It's not for lack of trying. It's the simple fact that he's that selfish.

I'll be stressed in knowing that you're only setting yourself up for physical or emotional pain. Perhaps both. This headache cannot be avoided.

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[voiceinyourears]

I will try to not take it personally should I not reach him. I never said it would be quick or pain free to try.

I couldn't live with myself if I just gave up on him. If I don't believe in him and try then who will?

He's my brother Tohru.

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[hondatohru_desu]

I'm not telling you not to try. You're too stubborn for that bit of wisdom.

It's the simple fact that I know how this will end. And you will blame yourself. That's that, and that's all. That's why I'm upset. You will get hurt, just as I have been, if not moreso.

And I won't forgive him this time.

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[voiceinyourears]

What do you want me to do ?

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[hondatohru_desu]

Nothing I can say to that. Nothing's going to change, it's all set in motion.