I'm trying not to think about

[hondatohru_desu]

I.. I can;t,,

This is.. I said I would be, I never meant for it to be like this.. this isn't whatt.. it hurts,, I wanted to.. whydoes it hurt so much?

He's gone.. he.. I can't.. I.. come back, come back, pleasew.. I miss you.. I don't want this, I didn't mean.. youknow I didn't..

Ilove you.. wherever you are, I hope.. please know that.. please don't do anything.. please..

I don't know... I..

I don't want this, I just want everything to be.. liekit was.. a few nights ago, don't you remember? a few days.. weeks.. even backthen, before.. I just want..

I'm srry.. I didn't mean it.. I didn't.. it would still make me happy, so.. so happy.. I'm sorry..

tthis.. I can't-- I can't do it, I can'tt..