And You Have Erased All The Fear From Your Heart
The masquerade was not as bad as I had expected it to be; until the end, at least. I had quite a few wonderful dances, and some nice surprises. It was a shame that everything had to end the way it did. At least the rest of the night after I got home was relaxing enough.
I feel terrible, reacting to things as I did. Honestly, I didn't think I had it in me to be that sort of person. But I was just so.. angry. And even if he knows my situation, he was still being spiteful. Granted, I realize I was no better in the end. It just hurt..
And then being asked about my feelings toward Tasuki. I can't believe he called me out like that. There had to have been something else in that punch. But even so, I'm glad to have had that conversation with him. It was nice, being able to talk to him in such a normal fashion. I wish it could be like that more often.
Still.. I shouldn't have said that when leaving the ball last night. Even if I was angry and hurt, it was uncalled for. His expression..
God, I hope he's okay.. I'm not sure what I should do.. if I should check or not. After that conversation on Friday night, he's probably still upset. I know I am, but.. I'm not certain. I'm afraid of checking, of getting to close. It just feels like the closer I am, the more pain it'll cause him. I don't want that..
Lucy, perhaps we could meet up on Wednesday?
Sir, I wanted to apologize for my display. It was completely uncalled for. I will be sure to keep myself in line and under better control in the future. Again, I'm sorry.
I feel terrible, reacting to things as I did. Honestly, I didn't think I had it in me to be that sort of person. But I was just so.. angry. And even if he knows my situation, he was still being spiteful. Granted, I realize I was no better in the end. It just hurt..
And then being asked about my feelings toward Tasuki. I can't believe he called me out like that. There had to have been something else in that punch. But even so, I'm glad to have had that conversation with him. It was nice, being able to talk to him in such a normal fashion. I wish it could be like that more often.
Still.. I shouldn't have said that when leaving the ball last night. Even if I was angry and hurt, it was uncalled for. His expression..
God, I hope he's okay.. I'm not sure what I should do.. if I should check or not. After that conversation on Friday night, he's probably still upset. I know I am, but.. I'm not certain. I'm afraid of checking, of getting to close. It just feels like the closer I am, the more pain it'll cause him. I don't want that..
Lucy, perhaps we could meet up on Wednesday?
Sir, I wanted to apologize for my display. It was completely uncalled for. I will be sure to keep myself in line and under better control in the future. Again, I'm sorry.