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i wonder what everyone thinks of my moping like this. i am :S at myself too for this weakness. but be patient with me cos i dont think this will end anytime soon. or just skip reading my entries k? :)
i felt terribly lost today. i absolutely did not know what to do. it was my initial plan to go into johor on my own, but it just felt so pathetic going in alone. but more so, i just couldn bring myself to pass by that area. i mustve lingered in several places for more than an hour and a half before finally heading home. when the last bell rang, i just stood with my bags packed and i stood at the door wondering where to go next. after signing out of sch, i lingered in the carpark. then, i lingered at a petrol station. then, i lingered at my nenek's door (she wasn at home). then, i lingered in bedok. all the while searching for some kind of direction to go to. i felt so damn lost. nowhere to go, no one to be with, nothing to do. so. damn. lost.
its my fault. for not taking the step to just make plans with friends. but since im in the antisocial mode, i prefer to not interact. yes, this anti social mode comes periodically. otherwise, its triggered by major mood dampeners. so its my choice to be on my own. but certainly, it is not my choice to be feeling lonely. but worse, feeling lost. aimless. pathetic.
'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly, My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you
i felt terribly lost today. i absolutely did not know what to do. it was my initial plan to go into johor on my own, but it just felt so pathetic going in alone. but more so, i just couldn bring myself to pass by that area. i mustve lingered in several places for more than an hour and a half before finally heading home. when the last bell rang, i just stood with my bags packed and i stood at the door wondering where to go next. after signing out of sch, i lingered in the carpark. then, i lingered at a petrol station. then, i lingered at my nenek's door (she wasn at home). then, i lingered in bedok. all the while searching for some kind of direction to go to. i felt so damn lost. nowhere to go, no one to be with, nothing to do. so. damn. lost.
its my fault. for not taking the step to just make plans with friends. but since im in the antisocial mode, i prefer to not interact. yes, this anti social mode comes periodically. otherwise, its triggered by major mood dampeners. so its my choice to be on my own. but certainly, it is not my choice to be feeling lonely. but worse, feeling lost. aimless. pathetic.
'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly, My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you