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Starting to feel the beginning of a healthy relationship.
WTF is a healthy relationship?
This thing with James is crazy.
I feel like no one has ever loved me before
and now I'm feeling it for the first time ever.
Every single cliche about love is becoming apparent,
and I don't know what to do about it,
I remember once when I was really young,
reading this book that had two characters in love,
and there being a direct reference to when the male put his hand on the female character
she could feel every one of his fingers on her.
She was so aware of his touch, it wasn't just a hand shaped presence on her,
but something more detailed and clear.
I've tried to do that with every single guy I've been with,
but to no avail.
But
when James
touches me I
can feel every single
one of his fingers in
such sharp detail it's absolutely crazy.
People always told me that you could feel it when someone loved you
and that love showed through actions
and I never believed them
until now.
Jill XOXO