shoot me already. you know you want to..
i dont know if a recent entry of someones was to me or not. but even if it wasnt, im going to respond to it anyway. i can assure you that im not afraid of what anybody thinks. i used to be, yes. but i dont care anymore. i have better things to do than worry about what people think of me. i have school to concentrate on, a wonderful girlfriend, a job where i get paid pretty good, and some friends who i can hang with. sure, ill say it, ive changed. but so have you and everyone around you. you are not the same person i became best friends with not so long ago. as much as you think im a different person, youve failed to look at yourself. i changed. ive tried different things. ive learned lessons. ive been figuring out things that i didnt know before. just because i have the balls to try something new, doesnt mean that im a bad person. im sorry, but i think you have a problem if you think im the only one who has changed. its a part of life called "growing up". something you havent tried doing yet. you dont always have to be who they want you to be. and its strange that no one else thinks of me different except for you. i love you as my friend, and i always will. but ill never let the fact slip my mind, that you failed me. i went through a major time in my life, a time of discovery and a time of depression and all that shit, and you left my side because you were scared. you ran away when i needed you the most. sure i did a shitty job at being your best friend. im sorry that for a change i decided to worry about myself before i tried to help everybody else. you may hate me for who i am now, but the only thing that changed about me was some things i did. i never changed. my mind still works the same way, and my heart beats the same rythm. im living my live, and regretting none of it. "this is who i am, and whether you like it or not, this is who im gonna be tomorrow". either youre with me, or youre not..
well. today was the big day. six months. and im loving her more and more as each day goes by. she makes me feel like im some amazing person ya know. like im worth more than people make me feel im worth. shes the love of my life, and were going to get married and have kids and a house and stuff. =) we planned it all out. and we add more to it every day. we really are gonna get married. because we love each other so much. it honestly makes me so upset when im not with her, and i never want to leave her side when im near her. shes beautiful, intelligent, funny, loveable, you name it, she's got it. shes just so incredible, and i cant believe no one found her first. i LovE you lauren, and always will..
well i was going to put more, but im tired and i still have to read for public speaking tomorrow. so goodnight all.
antione is my favorite big penis'd black man::
HoMiESiStA222 (12:50:43 AM): antione, youll find someone.
Chacl1t (12:51:49 AM): no one as freaky as u
HoMiESiStA222 (12:52:07 AM): i am freaky arent i.
Chacl1t (12:52:35 AM): yup
HoMiESiStA222 (12:52:59 AM): lol
HoMiESiStA222 (12:53:04 AM): is that a good thing or a bad thing
Chacl1t (12:54:10 AM): goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood
HoMiESiStA222 (12:54:19 AM): LOL
--youd understand if you read our convo. lol